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Jungkook (LONG)

*Your POV*

I was laying on mine and Jungkook's bed, he just left to go to work, I really loved him, but I was scared to show it in public, because of all the hate I got just for holding his hand once at a resturante, and the hate I just got in generel, for excisting basically, every move I did in public was being watched. it was getting really hard, I couldnt go see my family or friends neither back home, because people would start rumors about me cheating on Jungkook, everything sucked, I did have the rest of the guys supporting me and Jungkook too, but that was literally the only people that was suporting me.

as I was laying in the bed staring at the celling I got a notification from my phone, I sat up in the bed and took my phone, I unlocked it and looked at the notification, "fuckingdieY/N commented on your picture", I closed my eyes as a tear rolled down my cheek, I sighed and opened up my instagram. I read the hurting comment out loud that the user had written, "why are you even still here? kookie derserve so much better than your fucking dirty ass. probably the only thing he likes about you is your ugly boobs, you fucking whore" I turned my phone off and threw myself down in the bed again, I laid on my side and hugged my legs hiding myself under the cover, as I burst into sobs, users like this had been writing on my pictures for a long time now, and sometimes I even considered killing myself, listening to them. maybe it would be better? but, I still have Hoseok and Taehyung, my bestfriends, how would they feel?...

suddenly a weird feeling was shot through my body, everything got numb and i had no emotions, I turned so I laid on my back and stared at the ceilling again, I wasnt sobing but tears was still falling, I slowly sat up and moved my legs over the edge of the bed side. I sighed loudly. it was weird, it was like my "normal" self was screaming inside, but my body felt like a cage.

I took my phone again from the bedside table, I unlocked it once again and saw many notifcations from "fuckingdieY/N" and other users like "Y/Nsucksdick" I sighed and ignored it, going to messages instead of instagram, I clicked on Taehyung's number, as I saw the phone calling I burst into sobs once again, I waited a bit for him to answer but he didnt, I tried calling Hoseok, not long after he answered "heeyyyy Y/N wass up!?" he giggled, I sobbed into the phone not able to get my words out, "wha- hey, hey?! what wrong?!" he asked worried, "I-I-I CAN'T" I yelled into the phone, i laid down on the bed and closed my eyes, "what? you cant what?" he said, "I-I can- can't" i took a deep breath to calm myself down, before saying th hurting sentence out loud, that had been burning me up inside, "I can't do this anymore, I wanna DIE" i yelled as sobs began coming screaming out of my mouth, I heard Hoseok call for Jungkook. "babe!? wha-" before he could say anything, I hang up, again i laid numb on the bed, feeling nothing else than pain.

*Jungkook's POV*

"JUNGKOOK COME HERE NOW" I heard hoseok hyung scream, I laughed and ran into the room he was in, my smile faded when I saw his sad and worried face, "what? whats wrong.. who's ont he phone?" I asked as I noticed the phone in his hand, "it's Y/N.." he answered, my eyes widen for second, I raced to him and took the phone "babe?! wha-" before I could say anything she hang up, "wha-whats wrong, what happened?!" I yelled at hoseok, "she said she cant do it anymore and that she wanna...die" he said tears rolling down his face, without hesitation, I ran out the door on my way to my car, I had to get to her quickly, as I was driving I looked down at my phone I tried to call her but she didnt pick up, I looked up at the road again, my version was blurry because of my tears,. and I almost crashed more than once.

as I drove into our driveway I burst into sobs, I ran to the frontdoor and unlocked with my shaken hands, as I entered the house, a sudden loud sound could be heard, like something falling, I ran upstairs and opened the bedroom door, the first thing I saw was a chair laying down and my girlfriend hanging, I thought it was too late, until I saw her panic in her eyes, I rushed to her and sat the chair under her feet, I removed her from the chair and held her on the floor, we both was sobbing like crazy and shaking, I hugged her tighter than i had ever done, "why- why" I cried into her neck, she shook her head and hugged me back, "im..im sorry" she sobbed into my chest. we sat like that for about 15 minutes, before we both had calmed down a bit, I pushed away from the hug and looked at her, "why..did you try to hang yourself? what happened?" I asked, she standed up and took her phone, at this moment I already knew what was going on, I shook my head, "dont show me please, I dont wanna know what they said, you know what they are saying isnt true, I love you and I always will Y/N, please" I standed up and pushed her down so she was laying on the bed, I laid down beside her and held her on my chest, "im sorry..im so sorry" she whispered into my chest, I didnt answer, I just held her and kissed her forehead "I love you" I whispered, "I love you too" she whispered back, I kissed her on the lips, she closed her eyes and so did I, we both fell asleep preparing ourself what would happen next.