They say regret's a bitch
And they're right.
It eats away at you
Until there's nothing left but a shell
Of someone you once thought yourself to be
Tonight I am full of regret
So much of it that I'm afraid I may drown in it
I made a mistake.
Again.
Not the kind I normally make
A really, really bad mistake.
That I don't know if I'll forgive myself for.
I'm not sure I can.
I hate myself for this.
I really do.
I hate myself for a lot of things
But this time I could have hurt you.
That makes it worse.
Because you trust me.
You believe in me.
You shouldn't
But you do.
And now here I am fucking it up.
Again.
So when I say i'm broken
Don't laugh like I'm wrong.
I am not wrong.
Not in that sense.
I am damaged.
Something you should replace.
I am the broken pencil
That you throw away.
Too small and worn down
To work properly.
I am something that cannot be fixed.
The sooner you leave the better
Because I am a mistake
And no one should have to deal with a mistake
That they did not create.
And the longer you stay
The more hope I will have that you won't leave.
Even though we both know you will.
So yeah.
Regret is a bitch.
And now I'm her bitch too
Cause I gave her a way in
And now Miss Regret
Has decided to tear me apart.
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