I used to wonder why I did this
But now I understand,
Because of all the pressure,
I knew not how to stand.
When my parents fought unendlessly,
I did not eat.
It was my attention seeking love that ended
My inner child with defeat.
When my friends left me out,
I did not eat.
Once I was better, they would soon be begging
To again be around me.
When my grades soon started slipping,
I did not eat.
Looks are good, but brains are more. If I cant be smart,
I must be drop dead beautiful.
When those boys played me,
I did not eat.
Although I didn't want them back,
I just needed them to see-
There could have been more to the
Outside of me.
I used to wonder why I did this
But now I understand,
Because of all the pressure,
I knew not how to stand.
