Humanity || Harry Styles Vampire

Chapter 23 || Vanish

I actually hate myself this has taken way too long. I don't know why I found it so difficult to write this one.
Oh well,
Enjoy <3

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I have never felt so alone... So void of all emotion accept unconditional sadness.

I haven't heard any word from my Aunt, I don't even know if she's healthy and able to contact me. I speculate why I haven't received any news from my Aunt. Maybe she can't do so for reasons including strict, tyrannical security regulations of the Royal Palace. I wonder, do they even allow messages to be transmitted to servants of the King? Contemplating this has brought to my attention that neither Aunt Amelia nor my sister, Darcy have written to me during my time here at the Castle... For all I know, Aunt Amelia could very well be dead.

As for my sister Darcy, it saddens me tremendously how I will not be able to watch her grow, flourish and become the person whom she chooses to be. I will not be able to leave my mark; a trace of myself on her person as she develops herself. I will have little influence over my baby sister.

When I think of her, I still see her as this little girl I once knew... what seems like an entire lifetime ago. I envision her with her hair kept back in a ponytail controlled by an overwhelmingly large pink scrunchy almost the size her tiny blonde head, smiling, with an array of mis-matched teeth. So much will have changed since then.

While in the palace, all I can think about is the absence of Selena... Another vacant seat at the dining table... Another beloved stripped away from me.

Realising how rather pathetically I pity myself, I leap up from the serenity of my sheets and remind myself; people have it much worse than you do, Ariana.

"The gas system has failed this morning. I'm afraid you'll have to wash cold." Aylee says while she assists Kenna, folding spare bed sheets that I will probably never need.

"Oh... Is that to do with the damage on the castle?"

"Yes. Unfortunately..."

"Maintenance says it shouldn't be fixed until Tuesday." Adds Lola. "A whole four days freezing cold water."

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I decided against the shower. It seemed as though the planet was rotating agonisingly slowly today, the day seemed never ending.

Harry stands in my room, he hasn't said a word yet even his presence irritates me uncontrollably, and I don't know why.

"Ariana, how say we go for a walk together. They've replace the Grand West Wall-"

"I'll pass." Dismissing his proposal, I question what exactly is causing my down right furry towards Harry.

Shocked, Harry closes his mouth and folds his arms in a defensive manner.

"Alright. Are you going to join us for lunch?" Us, referring to the Lords and what remains of their blood servants.

"I'm not hungry." I lie.

"Okay." Harry sighs and draws in toward me, continuing to speak in a more sincere tone. "Why are you upset with me?"

Considering the fact that he can read minds, he asks me anyway, frankly, because even I can't answer his question.

He comes closer, his forest green eyes scan mine in hopes for an answer, reading me as if I were a book in a foreign language. I can tell he is worried. My every sign of body communication, Harry tries to translate.

He tenderly grabs my hands, urging me to speak to him.

"I don't feel safe here."

Emptiness consumes the air; momentary silence.