Interview - S.W.

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I kept walking, I wanted to look back but I couldn't.

As I walked home my only thoughts were about today.

How Sam just sat there while Emma was there. Why he didn't stop Emma. Why he would even do anything with someone else, was I not enough for him.

God I'm so stupid, I should of listened to my self but no I listened to Emily and Johnson. What was I thinking, I know how he treats girls. Hump and dump, nothing more. Why would I think I wouldn't end up just like that. Maybe I thought I would be different because I am, was, one of his best friends and that I could trust him, that I could believe him when he said he cared, liked and wouldn't hurt me.

I can't keep asking my self Why?

Why any of this.

We should never of kissed that night after the party, never should of continued it, never should of done that stupid jealousy game, never should of gone to the cabin, never should of stayed in the same room, never should of listened when he said he had a surprise, never should of said yes, never should of let him hurt me. Never should of let any of this happen.

My concerns about what would happened, how he happened he hurt me, our friendship is gone, god knows how our group will be.

Before I knew it I was walking up to my house and opened the door and ran into my room tossing my bag on my bed. I got to my window and opened it, using it as a boost to get onto the roof.

Once I got up there I sat there like always, I guess I'm predictable.

Predictable, maybe that was the reason why he did it.

But the truth is I don't know, nor do I want to know.

Normally this would be the time I would call my brother, but I can't tell him about Sam. Next person would be Sam, but obviously I can't. Then it would be Gilinsky, can't do that because he'll just defend Sam. Nate and JJ I can't call because they are with Gilinsky and Sam. Girlfriends would be next but I don't really have any other than Sasha and Emily. Sasha, me and her aren't the best of friends and I don't want to that. Emily, obviously I can't, she's Sam's sister god knows what she'll do.

So I have no one.

I ran my hand down my face and I slid down to the end of the roof. I swung my self back into my room and went into my closet. I pulled out a pair of joggers and a sports bra.

If I didn't have anyone to talk to then I'll do what I normal do, go for a run.

After I changed and put my shoes on I left. I kept my phone with me even though it kept going off with texts and calls from Sam.

I ignored them and just ran.

I ran to the park and to the table. I sat down to catch my breath. Shortly after I stood back up and ran again. I ran around the park.

I ran back home, I ran around the block. Just kept running. After I ran the block a few times, I got my mind off of Sam. I jogged back to the house and grabbed a water bottle from the kitchen, being as quiet as possible.

I went back up onto the roof and just sat there. Leaving my mind blank.

Probably 30 minutes later a car pulled up and I recognized it, I groaned as I saw it was Gilinsky's. Nate got out and no one else.

"Can I come up?" He called from below.

"Sure." I sigh.

Soon he was up onto the roof and sat down next to me.

"Okay, I'm not going to tell you he didn't do anything or he did because I don't know honestly, when they left I stayed where I was." He said. "But I honestly don't think he did anything."

"Nathan I wouldn't of let you come up here if I knew you were gonna defend him." I sighed.

"I'm not defending him because I don't know." He said. "But I don't think he did anything. I think that Emma was lying because when she sat down she just had a normal conversation with us, nothing flirty. She hadn't mentioned anything from Friday until well you know when."

"That still doesn't make up for the fact that Sam did nothing." I say.

"I know. I think he was just in shock, just like all of us were." Nate told me. "I don't think anything happened because he does genuinely like you Az', he does care for you."

"Nate please." I sighed.

"Fine but think about that." He said. He sat back for a second and looked over my clothes. "You went for a run?"

"Yeah." I nodded.

"Why didn't you call me or JJ or G or Emily or Ethan?" He said quickly. Like I've said these boys know me too well.

"You and JJ where with Sam and G, G has been defending Sam, Emily is Sam's sister and Ethan can't know, who knows what would happened." I said and he nodded.

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Long update :)

Lots of mistakes, probably.

If there are mistakes that bother you a lot, let me know so I can fix them because I'm not gonna edit until the end of the book. So just let me know.

Y'all don't know what next chapter brings.

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