Tomoe's Sister (kamisama Hajimemashita) [UNDER EDITING]

...the siblings...{part 2}

Tomoka POV

I wish I can just leave peacefully.
Why is that hard for my one wish to come true?
Can't someone just kill me?
Wait...I can't die yet...right...

My brother is glaring at me.

"Can you stop glaring at me?"
"Not until you leave."-Tomoe
"What did I ever do to you?"
"..."
"If I was born into this world don't blame me...blame mother for bringing a disgrace to her own family."
"Don't bring mother into this."-Tomoe
"It's true though and you knew she could have gave me away but she didn't...and I had to suffer."
"..."
"Oh don't tell me...even me being born was MY mistake."
"If you obeyed mother she would have treated you better."-Tomoe
"That's the problem. She never did even after I obeyed her,she treated me like trash.JUST LIKE HOW YOU DID."
"SHUT UP! I DIDN'T TREAT YOU LIKE TRASH!!!"-Tomoe
"...you SHUNNED me. SAID I didn't belong EVEN IN MY OWN HOME. Said I WAS A MISTAKE. Said you hated me COUNTLESS OF TIMES."
"..."
"I'm here to pack my things and to patch things up but it's like you don't even want to."
"...I do.."-Tomoe
"WELL IT SURE DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT!"

He flinched when I yelled at him.
Dammit.
Don't you just hate it when you feel guilty for shouting?
Even when that person deserves it?
This is why I never say anything.
I feel guilty for saying these things...
Since I'm treated as trash I got used to obeying orders and accepting it.
Getting beaten...
Getting shunned...
Getting hurt...
I accept them all.
Why can't they just let me apologise or say what I wanna say and understand me?
Is understanding a person that hard?
I've been through a lot..
I just want to leave already.
I'm exhausted.
Give me a break...
Jesus Christ ....why can't they just understand?
This is why I always run away from my problems.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being born into your family. I'm sorry for even existing. Jesus Christ why couldn't I have just been born into a normal and accepting family."
"...I'm sorry."-Tomoe
"You're sorry? Why? Haha."
"Why you ask...because I didn't help..."-Tomoe
"Pfft. Hahaha. You? Help? Don't make me laugh haha."

Third person POV

Tomoka laughed and wiped off an imaginary tear while Tomoe looked at her.
Suddenly Tomoka looked up and her whole face darkened.
Tomoe,Nanami,Takashi and even Mika couldn't help but shudder as Tomoka's face looked like she just killed a newborn baby.
Tomoe finally having enough courage decided to say something that made Tomoka's face relax a little.

"I'm sorry for everything I've done..."-Tomoe
"Saying sorry now is a little too late don't you think?"-Tomoka
"...I'm still sorry..."-Tomoe
"Tch. It's fine and besides I've accepted the fact that I was a failure that shouldn't have existed."-Tomoka
Tomoe was taken aback.
He never knew his sister accepted things like that...he never knew just how much she suffered...
The guilt was eating him and Tomoka alive..
Tomoka felt guilt because she thought that she shouldn't have been born and only caused trouble to people she knew.
Tomoe felt guilt because he knew he could've done something but never did.
He knew what their mother has done to her and yet he did nothing.

"Well. I guess I could say things have been taken care of here. So,I'm packing my stuff and I'm leaving."-Tomoka
Tomoe and Nanami were shocked to hear this,wasn't she going to stay when things have been fixed? Well...a little better.
"What do you mean leave? Aren't you going to stay?"-Nanami
"No. I can't, I have a job Nanami...I can't leave it."-Tomoka
"Can you not just quit it?..."-whispered Tomoe
But loud enough for everyone to hear.
Tomoka just laughed at that.
"For someone who asked me to leave...now asking me to stay...I...don't feel comfortable.
Besides I can't quit it...I signed a blood contract. So I'm not leaving anytime soon.well unless I die of course."-Tomoka