Before the Darkest Storm

Chapter 20

Chance was quiet for a long time, and I didn't blame him. "Seb kissed you so you slapped him? He asked me speaking each word slowly.

I started to nod my head again, but I realized that doing that would be a lie. I hadn't just slapped Seb because of the kiss, there was more to it than that.

Shaking my head I turned to Chance again. "It wasn't just because of the kiss, it was the what happened before and after the kiss." I told him.

Chance's eyes were filled with confusion. "What happened before and after the kiss?" He questioned curiously.

I bit the inside of my cheek and felt the metallic taste of blood. "It doesn't matter. I just don't know how to face him now." The blood stopped oozing and the pain in my cheek subsided, but I still felt tears in my eyes.

Chance nodded his head and stroked my hand with his thumb. That little gesture was enough for my tears to come falling. The wetness dripped from my cheeks onto my neck. I could feel those tears seeping into my light shirt.

"I don't know why I'm crying." I told Chance pathetically. There was no reason for these tears, they made no sense.

Chance's arms went around me and he pulled me tightly towards him. His hand went to my hair and he patted me there like I was a dog. "I think I know why you're crying Ana." He whispered softly on the top of my head.

I pulled back from him and wiped my cheeks. "Why?" I asked him curiously. How could he possibly know why these ridiculous tears were falling down my face, when I didn't even know?

Chance looked down at me and waited, as if he was trying to decide whether he should tell me whatever he thought or not. I almost thought he wasn't going to say anything, but then he smiled down at me. "I think you are crying because seeing Seb with Julie earlier upset you. I think you are crying because even though you slapped him, that kiss you shared with him meant something to you." Chance reached his hand over and gently swiped away some stray tears. "Ana, I think you are crying because you are in love with Seb." Chance finished softly.

I pulled away from Chance and gapped at him with my mouth wide open. "I am not in love with Seb!" I denied. "How could I love someone who has been so horrible to me?" I exclaimed, appalled that he would come to such a conclusion. "If anything right at this moment I would probably say that what I feel towards Seb is pure hatred."

Chance shook his head and reached for my hand, but I kept it away from him. "There is a very fine line between love and hate Ana." He told me with his eyes boring into mine. "And Seb might not have treated you fairly, but we both know that everything he has done has been to protect you. It's not so hard to love someone who is always looking out for you." Chance reasoned.

I frowned at him and started to argue with him but something in his eyes stopped me. His eyes looked revealing, they looked enlightened and suddenly I found new tears running down my face. I refused to let my mind think, I didn't want to think. Thinking caused problems, thinking led to unnecessarily revelations, and thinking was a very dangerous friend to have. Even as I warned myself not to think I could almost hear the gears turn in my head. I saw flashes of moments run in my mind. Memories from when I was a child, memories from the past few months, and memories from today. All those memories revolved around one person and I felt my heart race. Suddenly the pit in my stomach and the emptiness I had been feeling made sense.

I widened my eyes at Chance and felt more tears tumble down. "I am so stupid!" I cried shaking my head. "So stupid!" I repeated more to myself than to Chance.

Chance's arms surrounded me and enveloped me into his warmth. "You aren't stupid Ana. In fact I would have been surprised if you didn't fall for him. He is not only gorgeous and powerful but he is also caring and given the number of hours you spend with him I would say it was inevitable." Chance's voice was so warm and I instantly felt a little better because he wasn't making fun of me.

"What am I going to do?" I asked against his shoulder. "How am I going to get over this feeling?"

Chance pulled me back a little and looked at my face. "Why do you need to get over this feeling?" He inquired curiously.

I frowned at him. "Because I can't be in love with Seb, that's ridiculous. What could possibly come out of that except heartbreak?" Didn't Chance understand how horrible this was? Seb didn't do relationships and he definitely didn't do love. Hadn't he told me that plainly enough? And yet my stupid heart didn't heed that warning. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Chance matched my frown with his own down turn of the lips. "You don't know that Ana. Something great could come out of it." He told me probably trying to cheer me up but failing miserably.

I shook my head and walked away from him. I went to the window and looked at the darkness that now covered the beautiful backyard. It was really amazing how something can seem so beautiful in one light, and seem like nothing in another.

"Nothing good can come of this." I told him and turned to face him. "I am going to get over this one way or another." I spoke with determination.

Chance observed me for a while. His stance was casual but his face was rigid. "If that's what you really want, then I'll help you." He said and then grinned. "We will start project LGAOS." He stated with a smirk.

I narrowed my eyes at him. "LG what?" I asked him. I could even remember the rest of what he said.

Chance rolled his eyes at me. "Project LGAOS." He said and grinned again. "Let's get Ana over Seb."

I scowled at him but couldn't help as my lips curl up a little at the look on his face. "LGAOS huh?" I asked him appreciating his support.

Chance nodded his head and sat down on the couch and then he patted next to him indicating for me to sit. I walked over and slid next to him. Chance grabbed the remote and found the play button but before he pushed it he turned to me with an amused smirk. "So is Seb a good kisser?" He asked and I immediately blushed and punched him hard in the shoulder.

"Ouch!" He complained with a wide grin as he pressed play.

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