Who is He?

Raw Emotion

Do me some poetic justice,
Make my death amusing.
If I was to die tomorrow,
Let it be gory.

There's no reason to live
But I can't see to die,
Tried enough times,
But I never paid a price.

Tears in my friends eyes,
When they heard I tried again.
"Selfish" they called me,
A selfless act they would not understand.

If I die my pain ends,
Transferred on is no difference.
Screw the world and what it's done,
Bullet it a gun, all it takes is one.

I can't keep pretending I love life,
Its a broken roller coast that I've rode enough.
Look me in the eyes and tell me,
There's a reason I'm still breathing.

And maybe I'll believe you,
Take my hand and prove it.
Give a reason better than,
"It gets better, wait for it."

I've been waiting 6 years.
Do the math I'll wait.
Did you figure it out?
Cause the answer sheet is on my face.

The nights I spent crying because I hurt a person,
The days I walked around without and friends and no solution.
The weeks I've spent contemplating it all,
The hours it took me to have the courage to write this all.