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by Legendary_Champion

by Legendary_Champion

PRESENT

'We should practice a dance this afternoon.'

I was surprised to hear from SeHun because this was the first attempt at conversation since I fought with Baekhyun.

I didn't mean to injure Baekhyun as much as I did, but the beast had control over me and I could not stop it. All it took was a punch in the jaw before I completely lost it, pouring out all my frustration and anger.

What made it worse, was that he did not fight back.

You grabbed me, pleading and crying for me to stop hurting him.

I didn't listen to you.

But when my next punch landed on your face causing your head to jerk backward, tears streaming down your face, I finally snapped out of my trance, the weight of what I had just done now settling in.

I was shocked at my actions. I just injured one of my best friends and hit the person I loved.

I was repulsed at myself as I looked at the blood that was coating my knuckles. They were coated with Baekhyun's blood.

It was not his fault. It was not his fault. It was not his fault.

It was mine. My choice to leave you even though it meant breaking your heart, and he was the one who brought you back and mended you.

I should be thanking him instead.

Your cheek was red and was beginning to swell, your eyes pleading for me to stop. They were not full of hate, but sadness and pity.

It would have been so much easier if you hated me.

So much easier if all of you hated me.

It would be better if you did not care about me as much as you do because one day, I was going to hurt you beyond repair.

"Kaaai," SeHun said waving his hand in front of my eyes, snapping me out of my thoughts, "You zoned out for a second there."

He chuckled and it brought back a wave of nostalgia of all the times we would spend together, the hours and hours of dancing and inventing new choreographies.

"No."

"Wha-"

"Sorry SeHun, I can't." I repeated through gritted teeth, not meeting his eyes. It ached me to say that when in reality I would have really loved to spend the afternoon with my friends. He was silent for a few minutes and I assumed he had already left, leaving me alone once more.

"You don't have to be like this you know. We've forgiven you, but on days like this, I sometimes wonder why." SeHun whispered, emotion causing his voice to crack. I bit down on my lip hard, drawing blood as his footsteps receded into silence.

Trust me, it's for the best.