PRESENT
SuHo, Chanyeol, Kyungsoo, SeHun, Baekhyun and I were the closest of friends, joined together by our love for music and dance. That passion that kindled that friendship between us with a bond stronger than family. Or so I thought.
But just like everything else in my life, it fell apart.
Piece by piece.
Day by day.
All because of me.
All because I could not control the beast that was in me who was just waiting to let itself out at all the wrong moments.
It gnaws at my mind, at my sanity and sometimes I wonder if I really am running mad.
Every single day, the urge gets stronger and it gets harder and harder to control. It wants blood, death and revenge.
It makes me want to kill somebody.
And that thought frightens me more than I would care to admit.
Sometimes...sometimes I wake up miles away from home with no memory of how I got there. My hands, they turn to claws every time I am angry, and these outbursts are becoming more and more frequent.
I fear that I might end up hurting someone I love.
Especially you.
Especially you.
Monster my mother used to call me before she left me and my father behind.
Monster, monster, monster
The words replay in my head like a freakish song.
But what if it really is true?
What if I truly am monster?
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WHAT IF? • KAI • EXO FanFiction
FanfictionWhat if you were given the chance to change the past?
