Conflict Of Interest

Chapter 12: Wasted Time

Chapter 12....... Wasted Time

I walked to my car where Dave and Mel still stood there in the parking lot. My knees were weak but I still kept walking. My stomach was turning but I was keeping my food down. I wanted to just curl up into a ball and cry but I know I have to keep going

"Lets go." I said

I was hiding my emotions my face was blank. This is my defence mechanism. I didn't want to cry, not where Scott can see me. They nodded and we all headed off back to Dave's place

"If I could hold back the rain
Would you numb the pain?
'Cause I remember everything
If I could make you forget
Would you take my regrets?
'Cause I remember everything."

Perfect lyrics for me, for everything. I wanted to numb myself from all the pain. Old habits were pushing to come out again but . The fight is on. I had to fight not to hurt myself anymore. I have been hurt enough. I shouldn't be driving not like this, I was so emotional and my judgement was clouded. I sighed. I stayed as focused as I could. Then I finally made it to Dave's place. I seen two cars in the driveway. Dave and Mel made it before me. I headed inside the house and there sat Mel and Dave, Dave on the couch and Mel on the chair

"Mi." Mel said

That's when I broke, I ran to her and she stood up welcoming me with open arms as she hugged me. She held me up as my knees gave out. Tears fell down my face and onto her shoulder

"Mi it's okay." Mel cooed

 She ran her fingers through my hair. She had the same long blonde hair as me but a different style. She was also the same height, I love having a twin, switching names to mess with teachers, switching classes, too much fun. She was also one of my best friends. Those memories made me smile. Dave came up behind me and grabbed my waist and hugged me then he placed his head on my shoulder. I didn't care it felt comforting, more than it should. Mel let me go, Dave gently spun me around and he hugged me, tight. Butterflies rumbled and my chest became tight. I haven't felt this is 2 years

"Mia it's alright." He whispered in my ear

Then I remembered what he said at the apartment about me not being his girlfriend and saying it with such hate and disgust. I pushed him away and Mel and Dave looked at me puzzled

"Do you have true feelings for me?" I asked

I cleared my tears and stood there looking at him. I was acting calmly trying not to give away my anger but my shield seemed to have faded. I'm sure that my body language completely gave my emotion away. I looked over at Mel, and Mel looked at him and gave him the better tell her look

"Or was that kiss we shared is only going to hurt me more?"

"Yes Mia I have true feelings for you, the reason why I said what I said was to protect you." He said

"I know he'll find us Mia if I said yes, I can't let you get hurt again. I'm going to protect you." He added

"I'm sorry, I just felt hurt, because, uh." I wasn't sure how to say the last part

"I said you weren't my girlfriend?"

"Um yeah." I hesitated

"Mia, it's true, you're not but that doesn't mean I don't want you to be, you're just not ready and I respect that."

He was right, or am I ready. I gave Dave another hug, he rapped his arms around my waist and he put his face close to mine. I caught him off guard as I closed the gap between our lips proving to him that I wanted him as much as he wanted me or even that I wanted him more. The kiss didn't get deep but it was just a standard kiss that was what I wanted. He soon pulled away and just looked at me. Mel was jumping up and down with joy. I looked at her