Dear Reader

Dear Reader #1

Dear Reader,
5/30/2016
As the days get hotter, I get happier because last summer was the best summer of my life. I had the perfect summer romance with a boy I knew loved me. We carried the relationship on for four months, broke up, got back together, broke up and got back together. This is our third time being back together. Although we are stupid teenagers, I took out a lot of my depression and anger on him. I was suicidal; I would blame him. I would control him and get mad for little things. I have since gotten a psychologist and I have been working on my depression. Things with me and this boy have been pretty stable for the most part. Lately I've felt like there is something he is not telling me. I may just be paranoid.
I think I'm just paranoid.
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Dear Reader,
It has been a few weeks. This boy cheated on me with his best friends girlfriend. He also purposely ignored my texts and would not take me to prom. He left me. This has led to awful paranoia and anxiety. I have fallen in love with someone else and I am deathly scared they will cheat on me. Unlike the last boy, I find no flaws in this one. He has PTSD and I still don't mind. He has the most exquisite southern accent I have ever heard and hearing it makes my brain heavily confused with happiness. I have really fallen hard for this boy, and we will call him Shane.
I do not want to spit out all the details about Shane. All you need to know, Reader, is that he is very, very far away. I get very, very sad at night when I think about sleeping in a bed alone. I wake up from dreaming every hour to realize that I am alone in a cold bed with heavy sheets. This saddens me. I truly believe Shane is my soul mate. Shane knows about my bad habits, about my picky insecurities, about my weird, reoccurring nightmares. He has patients. It takes a lot of patients to deal with me. I don't think he knows what he's getting into.

Yours always,
Anonymous.