I just wanna end it all
Get rid of the pains and falls
Just wanna close my eyes
And leave this useless life...
This world is just a mix of torture...
Ups and downs it is supposed to be
But all I see is the sky getting down on me...
Suffocating at three A.M.
Blame it all on the quick heart beats...
Malnutrition is all they can see
The coffee and the green tea
The scales going down
The skin getting paler, they can't see...
"Why won't you eat?"
Is all that matters
"Take that phone out of your hand"
"Won't you spend time with your fam?"
Is this really all you think of while I'm having a breakdown?
Blood dripping down my thighs
"What's taking you this much time?"
"Come out and help me, be usefull for once in a while"
I'm fainting someone help me...
"Wake up it's time for school"
Ugh, another shitty day for sure
"Live your life, you might never wake up tomorrow"
I sure am living my life wishing for no tomorrow...
Why won't you take me
Save me from this painful journey...
Blood is all I can think of
OCD at it's finest
Did I mention BPD?
And all the hallucinations
The eating disorders and the mood swings
Is depression all what I'm really deserving?
It hurts
But nobody cares
I'm in pain
But nobody can see
Set me free from this cage
The plastic promises and the high voices
Please god, I swear I'll be a good girl
Just save me from this world that clipped my wings
Broken hearts and dripping tears
Tearing off my skin that keeps
The real me imprisoned inside
Is homosexuality really that bad?
"It's here!
Right behind me
Don't come here!
Stay away from me
It's dangerous!"
Is all I can scream
Beeping sounds is the next thing I hear
The white of the hospitals calming me down
Is that it? The sterilized smells
I close my eyes, it's finally over
I'm ready to go, I flip over
But then I open my eyes
It's a dream! It can't be
Save me! I was actually happy
Quick heart beats
What the hell is happening
Yes that's my life
Is it that surprising?
I might come off as happy
Smiles and jokes all the way
But the only way I'd really smile dear
Is if you cut me ear to ear honney
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Poems
PoetryI just came out with a poem in boring hours at school and thought I would drop it here Trigger Warning: ed, self harm, depression, bpd and stuff like that
