REAPING INNOCENCE ◦ STILINSKI [3]

LETTERS TO CARTER

LIAM'S LETTER TO:
❝ A LOST FRIEND ❞

❝To My Friend,

I want you to know that I think of you everyday, Carter. I want you to know that I miss you more than anything, and I would give anything to talk to you one last time. I still remember the last time that I saw you. We'd spent the entire day together and you were leaving for him, and I begged you not to leave. I pouted and told you that I would miss you while I slept. For some reason, I felt like it would be the last time I saw you. Looking back now, I wish I would have spent more time with you, made more memories.

You were the most complicated person I've ever known. And despite all the darkness in your life, you often smiled the brightest smile I've ever seen. I look at old pictures and videos I have saved of our memories, but it's just not the same, but I know you are happy still. Although it is cliché, I know you are in a better place.

These past six months have been so hard for all of us without you, and so much has changed, but I know you are guiding us in the right direction. Somehow, you still influence my life, even if you aren't here. I can't even count the amount of times I needed to talk to you, to call you, to hold you because you were the only person I knew would understand my problems or situations I was going through.

Losing someone as precious and perfect as you was the hardest thing I ever had to deal with. All of my accomplishments and achievements since that day have been because of you, because I constantly ask myself what you would do whatever I am faced with a tough situation. I know if you were here you would say I am being ridiculous for being so sad, you would laugh at me and tell me to be positive, and you would drive me around in your car, blasting music.

There is a song that came out a few weeks after you left, and I know you would have loved it so much. I wish I would have been able to show it to you. I wish I had all the pictures of us that you hoarded on your phone, and I wish I could remember that one thing Logan said that made you spit out your water across the room.

I want you to know that I remember your laugh, your stories, and the strange comforting warmth that always radiated from your body. I know that I'll never experience these things again, but I thought I would let you know that I'll remember you, Carter.

So, I just miss you. Thank you for being the big sister I always wanted, for accepting me when no one else would, and for being someone that will always impact my life.

Sincerely,
—Liam❞