No one sees me under my mask
And I like it that why
I'm too ugly underneath
Too saddening underneath
If you look at the inside of the mask you'll see many things
You'll see the dried spit that came out when I was screaming for someone
You'll see the dried tears from all the nights I cried myself to sleep
You'll see the dried blood that I've coughed up
You'll see the scratches left behind from when I wasn't used to it
You'll see the lines of my permanent frown
But the outside is everything you see everyday
The warming smile
The friendly eyes
The rosy live cheeks
It all was a lie
It told you I'm ok
It told you I love myself
It told you I'm happy
It told you I love everyday
It told you I cared for people
It told you I'm alive
It told you I'm ready for anything
It told you I have my life planned
It told you I have a future
It told you I have faith in God
It told you I want to be with people
It told you I get enough sleep
Lies. Every bit of it a lie.
If you looked beneath my mask at me you see
My eyes have bags, I haven't had a good night of rest in years
My eyes are swollen and red, I can't help but cry everynight
My eyes are filled with worry, no plan for the future
My eyes have fear, what happens next could kill me
My eyes have doubt, I've lost faith in God
My eyes have agitation, I don't want To be near people
My eyes have hatred, I can't stand my image
My cheekbones poke out, I haven't eaten well in a while
Everything is wrong in my picture
There's no happy or good
So I put back on my mask
My hot breath is what keeps me warm
My permanent smile is shown to everyone
And no one notices that it's plastic
I guess it's just so real
The mask is me now and it keeps me from being alone
What's under your mask?
Oh won't you let me know?
YOU ARE READING
Behind this mask
RandomJust the small thoughts of what everyone thinks I am. But here I can take of my mask for all to see because no one really knows me.
