Faking It || l.r.h

31. Here We Go Again

"Yes, mum." I was beginning to get a little aggravated. It looked like she wanted to talk about the person I didn't want to think about at the moment.

"Are you sure? 'Cause you look a little aggravated-"

"I don't wanna talk about it!" I raised my voice. She looked taken aback and I felt bad but instead of apologizing, I took my plate and hurried up to my room.

I know she was only wanting to make sure I was okay but I didn't want to talk about it and she should've left it at that.

Wow, now I see why Avery got frustrated with me so many times.

It was wrong of me to let my anger takeover like that, on Avery and my mother. My mum was just trying to help and I love her for that. With Avery...I wasn't even thinking. We suddenly began fighting and insult after insult was being throw around until our friendship came to an end. But like I said, it's probably for the best. We're no good for each other; whether it's as friends or more. We go in the cycle of fuck ups and apologies and I'm sick of it.

I'll eventually learn to stop loving her. Besides, I have Brooke and she's all I need.

-

I went downstairs the next morning a little later than usual since I don't have to swing by Avery's anymore. I walked into the kitchen to grab a bite to eat and came face to face with my mum who I'm sure isn't too happy with me because of my outburst last night.

"Morning, mum." I said, not looking her in the eye.

"Mm." She said as she sipped her coffee. I knew that tone anywhere. She only used it when she was angry and I was the cause of it.

"Look, I'm sorry about raising my voice at you like that. I was upset 'cause," I sighed, "I got in a fight with Avery and I took my anger out on you when I shouldn't have." I looked at her and she sat her mug on the counter.

"I understand you were frustrated, relationships are hard, but that doesn't mean you can talk any kind of way to me." She said.

"I know and I'm sorry." I said.

"Are things okay between the two of you?"

"They will be. We just need to patch things up." I lied. I knew it was time for our little act to come to an end but she didn't need to know.

She nodded. "Well good luck to the both of you."

I smiled and looked at the microwave for the time. "Well I have to go, I'll see you later." I went and kissed her on the cheek before leaving. So much for getting breakfast.

When I arrived at school, I instinctively searched the grounds for any sign of Avery and was a little saddened when I didn't see her. I quickly shook the feeling and headed towards the entrance. This is something I'm gonna have to get used to. I enjoyed seeing her and spending as much time together as we did but soon we're not gonna do that anymore and there's nothing I can do about it.

I went straight to my locker and was surprised to find Brooke there.

"Good morning." I said as I put in the combination.

"How can you carry on like this and not feel guilty?" She blurted out.

"Feel guilty for saying good morning?" I asked, obviously confused.