opinionated - first draft

todd

there is a boy
we'll call him todd
and before i go on
thank you todd
for those months you gave me
that friendship we had
i miss it and i know you don't care

anyways
i miss todd
i miss him dearly
every time i look his way it hurts me
i trusted him
i opened up my locked door to him
and he slammed it in my face a week later

i don't understand why todd is that way
he's scared
scared to open up
to the possibility the hottest girl isn't talking to him
that a no one is

i don't understand todd
i don't know what i did
to scare you off
to frighten you
and how i'd kill to know why

but thank you todd
not everyone stays
only a couple do
and i knew you wouldn't be one
even though i wished you could
but that's not how our story unfolds

see, todd, mind if i ask a question?
i do this to cope with myself
to understand
and feel
and think
this isn't a cry for you come back
to continue our friendship
because you don't care that i'm gone todd
you don't care i tore my body, heart, and soul up

that isn't you
you used to care
you used to be todd
but now?
i don't know you anymore
you scare me
you showed me how it is for the world to come crashing down in one day
you showed me how it felt like to die

thank you todd
i need more guys like you
but your fuse is short
and my fiery personality
just ended up
blowing it up