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Part 8

Vivian's POV

I arrive at home still crying. I get out of my car and go inside. I try to stop crying but I can't. Why did god give cancer to her. All I know is I have to be strong for her since she was strong for me.

Firstly I know need to move into the orphanage. I need to learn quick what to do. I go and find the boxes from when I moved in. I can pull another all nighter. I continue to pack the small amount of things I have. I put on a pot of coffee and some music and began.

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I awake in the morning early. I eat some breakfast I left out last night. I then continued to load boxes into my truck when I finish I tie it down before heading to meet with my realtor. I had a quick to do list before I go and talk to Mrs.Anderson.

The drive was long but gave me time to think. After I put my house on the market I headed to the orphanage. I walk inside and straight to Mrs.Anderson's office. I knock before entering. I sit and smile at the kind women. I ask how she's doing and we each do pointless chit chat. Then I say "So I'm ready to do anything you need. I'll take you to appointments and run the orphanage so you won't have to much stress on your plate. I don't mind at all. I put my house up and I'm gonna get a place close to here so I can be closer and keep an eye out on everything. You will beat this because your strong and I won't let you die. I'll be here tomorrow at 7:45 sharp to start."

I then get up and leave the office. I need someplace to stay. Someplace small and has a cheap rent. I walk around a while before disappearing into the woods. I've always liked trees and nature. After some walking I kneel on the ground. I'd never really been a religious person but I did believe there was someone watching over me through the years.

I closed my eyes and put my hands together. I prayed for good health, strength to help the women who should've never been given cancer, strength to persevere through life with the challenges ahead. When I had finished I got up and headed back humming along.

I exit the forest and walk down the street. I head into a coffee shop. I need some coffee and a place to go tonight. I order my usual and sit down at a table. I look at a newspaper. I skim through it quietly. It was getting late in the evening. I need to find a place to go tonight and some real dinner along the way.

I walk for a while looking around. I didn't even care if I needed a shower and I looked dirty. I just needed a hug from anyone. I find a small restaurant and go in. I sit at the bar though I was to young. I order some scotch and just sat there. I twirled it around. It would be my first drop of alcohol. I looked at it debating if I should drink it. If I drank it would I become like my parents.

I continue to look at the glass full of scotch. I set it to the side. I rub my head before I put a ten on the table, down the drink, and then exit the building.

I don't know what to do now. It was night time. I had to be over at the orphanage at 7:30. Sharp. It's to late to get a hotel so I head off into the woods. I can find somewhere to lay. I walk for a while before coming across a water fall. I smile and sit on the grass by the side. I touch my hand in to the water before stripping down to my birthday suit. I slowly enter after folding my clothes so they won't get wet.

I walk a little enjoying the warmth of it. I smile as I swim a little. The moon was shining brightly. Nothing bad can happen when the moon is shining.

I splash and swim around in the water. I enjoy myself for once. Until the sunrise comes up and I have to go. I exit the water and put on my clothes now I'm cold. I returned out of the forest. Clothes now soaking. I walk down the street to the orphanage with people giving me weird looks.

I arrive at the orphanage and change in my car. I enter yawning since I didn't go to bed yesterday. I go into the kitchen and grab some coffee in a cup. I sip quietly as it it still early. I believe no one will be up for about half an hour. I'll start breakfast sooner rather than later.

I look in the fridge and pull out all the ingredients I would need. I quickly make everything as all the children are coming downstairs. I smile at them as I set out all the plates and silverware. I smile as all of them come into the kitchen. I help everyone eat before grabbing something for myself. I get to know everyone more in depth. After a while I go find Mrs.Anderson for breakfast.

I knock on her door. I get no reply so I enter. She isn't in here so I go to her bathroom. I scream. Mrs.Anderson is passed out on the bathroom floor. I shakily take out my phone and dial 911. I explain the situation to the operator. I then sit down as I wait for the ambulance. I go downstairs to see all the children looking worried. I call out "who is the oldest child here." A man steps forward and I grab his arm. I pull him aside and whisper in his ear "watch everyone and I'll be back soon to watch everyone. I'm Vivian by the way. I'm going to be taking over for Mrs.Anderson." I hear the sirens outside. I nod at him before directing the paramedics upstairs.

I wait patiently before they put her on a stretcher and put her into the ambulance. I grab my bag and hurry into the ambulance. They do stuff to her and I sit on the side crying. I can't lose her she's my only friend in the world. They pull up to the hospital and take her inside. I follow as someone directs me into the waiting room. I sat in a chair and put my hands together. I pray silently.

"Please please don't let her die. I'll do anything just please don't take her away from me. "

I sit for hours only leaving to make sure nothing happened at the orphanage. Everything was good. I sigh and tell Andrew that I'll be back tonight just hold down the fort. I'm sorry to put so much pressure on him. I then told him to have someone bring my car to the hospital.

I wait for hours in those uncomfortable hospital chairs. I'd lost the will to cry hours ago. I sit and stare at the wall in silence. After a while a doctor comes out. He explains that her cancer had spread all over and they will try to cure it with chemo but her chances are slim. I thank the doctor and go in to see her. I smile as she was awake. I hold her hand and start to cry.

I stop after a while and ask "what's going to happen now?"

Pamela Anderson (wasn't sure if I gave her a first name comment suggestions if you don't like her name) smiles at me and says "I'm old and I will die soon but you have to do somethings for me."

I smile and nod as she continues "take care of the orphanage for me and all the children. And when I die be strong and let people in. I know how you work and I admire you but be more open and take care of the orphanage."

I'm sobbing as she finishes. I pull her into a hug and whisper I love you into her ear. I then sit with her for hours. Just talking and I try to make her comfortable. In the early hours of the morning I hear that dreadful beep. The doctors rush in and then pronounced her as dead. I just numb in the corner. I can't speak or cry.

I sign the papers numbly. I get in my car and drive. I don't go back to the orphanage. I park and head into the woods. I walk numbly around its dark and all I have is a flashlight. After a while it starts to sync in and I start to run. I don't know where I'm running but I eventually end up lost I sit down and continue to cry.

It's late at night and I have no idea where to go. What to do. So I just sit and wait. Wait for death or the sun or someone whatever comes first. I sit on the wood's floor and wait. But sadly death doesn't come this night. I'd finally really broken down. It's to much. I get in my truck and drive to the orphanage. I enter the building. I sit on the couch in silence.