Finding Them // sequel to Endgame AU

Chapter 7

Maya's pov

I shuffle my feet on the pavement. Kicking pebbles and litter out of my way, wishing I could roll into the street or down a ditch with them. Everything is just so confusing right now. I want to give up. I want to just start over and forget the dream ever happened.

But something is telling me I probably shouldn't do that.

It's just... how am I supposed to explain this?

"Yeah. It's pretty weird." I hear a voice say. I look beside me and remember that I'm going over to Zay's house. Frowning, I scold myself for zoning out on him.

"Um. I have absolutely no idea what the hell you were talking about." I tell him bluntly. I smirk. "Sorry." I add in, really quickly. I expect him to frown or be upset with me but all he does is chuckle and shove his hands in his pockets. We continue walking.

"That's okay Maya. Something is clearly on your mind I'm guessing." I sigh, quite exasperated and nod my head. Something's on my mind alright. Something big. I hear another laugh. "And I'll take that as a yes."

After a few more minutes of teasing, we walk up to a small little house. It looks very welcoming. The picket-fence is painted a baby blue color and in the front yard there seems to be a cute garden going on either side of the stone path and a swing on the porch. Zay and I walk up to the front door and he unlocks it for us. Holding the door open for me, he takes off my coat and motions around with his arm.

"Welcome to my wonderful home." He says twirling around, nearly falling over. I laugh at him and push him out the way.

"So. Where's your room?" I ask. Suddenly eager to tell Zay about the dream. I've decided to just spill it out all in one go; that way there is no silence for him to ask questions or butt in with his opinion.

We walk up to his room and I'm amazed at how aesthetic it looks. Everything is a faint gray; the walls, bed sheets. Even the rug. He has paintings hung on the walls; some by famous painters and others I'm guessing he did. I walk over to his desk and pick up a photo of him and Vanessa, holding hands and looking all in love. I smile and set the picture down. As I walk back to his bed I glance back at the picture and I swear it changed and became him and Farkle. That was the moment I tripped. We both laughed at my clumsiness.

I sit on the gray bed sheets and look anywhere but at Zay.

"Come on. You told me you would explain whats going-" He starts. But I don't let him finish because it all just spills out of me.

Everything.

Him and Farkle. Me and Smackle and Maya's triangle. Lucas and his asshole ways. And Vanessa and how supportive she was. When I finished I had tears in my eyes and Zay was silent. Awfully silent. The silence went on for what seemed like hours. But then again, how would you react if this- person you just met explained that they had a dream about you and your friends and your lives were completely different? I would be scared.

"Um. Is that why you wanted so badly to be our friends?" He asks, scratching the back of his head. I choke on my words.

"Yeah. I guess. I just wanted everything to go back to the way it was. But I see that that is impossible now." I say, still not looking at him.

"I-Me and Farkle?" Zay says sounding ever so confused. I glance over at him and see that he's smiling. My eyes widen at this.

"Why are you smiling?" I ask him. He sighs and laughs awkwardly.

"I don't know. I've never thought about him like that I guess. No, that's definitely a lie but let's talk about you." I laugh and nod as I wipe a few tears away. "Did the dream... did it feel real?" He asks, scratching the back of his head again. I let out a long sigh, probably my longest sigh ever.

"Yeah. So real. When I woke up I was in a state of shock for a few days." I wipe my hands over my face. "When I met you guys- again- it was like the connection between you guys and me was still there! Except I was only a stranger in your eyes. I don't know what to do. Nothing will go back to how it was of course and at this point I've come to that realization but..." I let my voice trail off and I can tell that Zay understands where I was going with that. We sit in an uncomfortable silence until he stands up and starts pacing.

"It won't go back to how it was, we know that so all I can say is to just make the most out of right now." He looks over at me and I'm looking at the floor. But I feel his eyes on me. "Do you still like her- or both of them rather. Riley and Smackle that is." I look up at him and shrug.

"I don't know. I'm not sure whether I like them because I like them or because I liked them in the dream. What if these feelings are just lingering? I don't know if the Riley and Smackle in this world are the same as in the dream, I mean they definitely seem that same." I look up and see that Zay has a blank expression on his face. "I don't know."

Is all he says before we fall into another silence.

Authors Note

Woah.

Four months without publishing, she comes back with a chapter.

Yeah, laziness took over. I'm such a bad person. I'm planning on finishing all my stories in the next two months (don't worry nothing will be rushed). I hate having unfinished stories in my library so I'm definitely going to finish.

Lots of love.