It Never Ends

It Never Ends </3

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I brushed My black hair down to the middle of my back. I slipped on my grey skinny jeans over my thin legs and white NeverShoutNever shirt and pulled a black hoodie on over the top to hide the cuts and bruises on my arms. I walked out of the room trying not to wake my mother's abusive boyfriend, In the next room over.

I slowly crept down the hardwood floor stairs into my bright sunny kitchen. I slipped my feet into my black vans and walked out the door into my mother's boyfriends son Noah's dark truck. He smiled at me with his beautiful blue eyes staring into mine. Yes his dad was a creep, but that doesn't make him one right? I mean he had only just moved in over the summer. He looked away turning on his old Woe, Is Me CD and drove away from home.

It was the first day back from winter break, I was so excited to see my best friend Ryan. Ryan was my best friend since preschool. Ryan had green eyes and black shaggy hair, he would most likely be labelled goth or one of those weird kids but labels never mattered to me. I've had a crush on him since I first laid my eyes on him while playing with Lego's on our first day of preschool in Ms. Carters class. I got out of the car and started walking, behind me a tall figure covered my eyes a deep sexy voice said "Guess Who?". Instantly I knew it was my best friend Ryan. I spun around giving him the tightest hug ever, he picked me up and spun me around as always. God sometimes I wished he would've never let go I felt so safe in his arms.

I walked into my first period to see Noah sitting next to who other than Ashlynn. Ashlynn had been my enemy since 2nd grade when my dad died. She used to mock me for it. Her words still repeated in my head like a bullet.

Flash Back

I was in in second grade when my dad committed suicide right in front of me. Ashlynn used to be my best friend till the day I came back to school after being gone for a month.

Hey freak "daddy couldn't put up with you anymore?" Ashlynn asked in the cruel baby voice she used when being sarcastic. I just ignored it as all the other girls sat in the lunch room laughing I heard Ashlynn whisper "her mom's gonna go next she's impossible to love."

That's when I got up and punched her in the face, breaking her nose.

Flash Back ends

Rylnn Chambers the teacher called my name in a boring mono tone voice. "Here" I called back with just as much enthusiasm in my voice as there was in hers. I really did hate being at school but my mother forced me to come to school she said the least I could do was to show up on the first day back from break. I swear i'd never come to school if it wasn't for me wanting to see Ryan, plus the 15 minute Car ride with Noah. Does that make me a horrible person to like my best friend and my mom's boyfriends son? It's not like we're related I mean I've only known him for a few months. Just thinking about it sent shivers down my spine I really am a horrible person aren't I? It was just so wrong... I shook myself out of daze and went back to focusing on algebra.

After school I met Noah at his truck and hopped into the passenger side. "Hey Rylnn" he said to me in his sexy explainable voice. His blue eyes covered by his black hair stared at me he looked as amazing as always. It toke me a minute to process his words every time he spoke to me. I couldn't help it but every glace he gave me I couldn't help but get lost in those ocean blue eyes. I cleared my throat and managed to force out the words "hey" without trying to sound to pathetic. I turned away and stared out the window sure I was still blushing.

When we got home I headed to my room. I laid on my bed and put my headphone in and flipped threw the songs my IPod stopping at Bring Me The Horizon. I listen to the album while Last night replayed in the head like a movie.

Flash Back

I was laying on my head when I heard a knock on my door.

"Come in" I yelled not wanting to move out of my warm bed.

I looked up at a well built man with Dark Brown Hair and blue eyes looking at me. It was my mom's boyfriend Kaleb. I knew what he was going to do but I tried to pretend like it wasn't about to happen. He got on top of me his body laying heavily on mine, He ran his hands up my shirt, I screamed. He covered my mouth quickly and slapped me across the face. He pulled out a sharp pocket knife out of his dark wash jeans. He held the knife against my throat still covering my mouth "one little peep from you and that'll be the last" his husky voice said he put the knife on my desk out of my reach. He ripped off my clothes and pulled down his pants and red boxers I closed my eyes hoping it was a dream. I tried to push him off of me I squirmed around my bed trying to make him stop, trying to break free from his grasp. He grabbed my wrists hurting me, I winced with pain as he slammed me against the bed. My head hitting the metal head board, He went harder and faster with each thrust it felt like he was ripping open my body. Once he was done he dressed and laughed as he left my room the words he said as he left echoed in my head "nighty night little slut, i'll be back. I can see how much you liked it" he smiled and closed the door to my room. I lay curled up in a ball my whole body every muscle aching I managed to crawl to my shower no being able to walk. I got up using the sink since to assist my self up. I started the shower and let the warm water run threw my black hair. I sat down in the shower the water still running, I examined the bruises already starting to form on my arms. I lifted my hand to my head feeling the bump that was created from when I was thrown against my headboard. I cried and reached for the razor blade I kept under my shampoo bottle. I let out all my pain on my wrists just hoping i'd bleed to death and die, ending the misery that is my life.

Flash Back Ends

My train of thought ended when I heard a knock on my door. I pulled out my headphones and jumped off my bed opening the door. I looked up at Noah staring at me sympathetically "can I come in?" Noah said giving me a half smile. "Sure" I said confused I opened the door gesturing him to come inside. We sat on my bed silently for a few moments when finally He broke the silence with his deep voice speaking slowly the words "We need to talk...".

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