The Perfect Man | J Cole

09

Gianni

EXPLICIT CONTENT
(so there's a sexual scene, if you don't like it, skip instead of crying about it. For the freaks, enjoy.)

I didn't say anything and just pressed my lips back on his again. I just wanted to kiss and hold him. He put his hand on my waist and pulled me on his lap.

My dad's words were lingering in my mind, but I was too hurt to pull away. I was so selfish when I left him.

I should have told him I was pregnant. I now regret I didn't. I can't tell him now. He has already missed 2 years of Lorenzo's life. All because of me.

I suddenly felt Jermaine's hand creep underneath my shirt and I knew exactly what he wanted. I wasn't going to fight it, cause I want to do it too. It's been 2 years since I've touched a man. Not just because of that, but because it was Jermaine touching me. The only man I allow to do so.

He slowly pulled my shirt up, over my head, exposing my black bra. "Oh." I moaned as Jermaine immediately dug his head between my breasts, licking, sucking and kissing on my skin. I looked down at him and kissed his lips while he removed my bra slowly.

"Are you okay with this?" Jermaine stopped before he was taking away my bra. I nodded and he immediately took it off. "There they are."

While kissing, I removed his shirt and he layed inbetween my legs, making me feel his erection. He grinded against me. Lord, this man knew exactly what the fuck he was doing to me.

"Baby." I grabbed his shirt and pulled it over his head. I made him take off his jeans and so did I. Once I was in my panties only and he was only wearing his boxers, I grabbed his hand and pulled him towards my bedroom.

"I like your hello kitty panties." Jermaine laughed, making me blush as he continued laughing, but soon stopped.

I closed the bedroom door and pushed him onto the bed. "I missed you." He whispered to me as I layed on his lap, feeling his dick twitch against my thigh made me roll my eyes in satisfaction.

"I missed you more." I didn't even give him time to give me a nice foreplay.

I wanted him inside me already!

"Take it out, J." I layed on my back and pulled him ontop of me. He chuckled as he took off his boxers and my eyes immediately landed on his dick.

It may be weird, but I always get nervous before sex. The reason is because Jermaine is sure big as hell. Losing my virginity to him was the most painful feeling ever. He was only 16 at that time but that dick was atleast 30!

I stared down at him and swallowed. Will I even be able to do this? I haven't done anything in over 2 years.

"Are you okay? Do you still want this?" Jermaine lifted up my chin, looking me in my eyes. "We can wait. I don't wanna rush this." He looked absolutely adorable as his concerned eyes stared right at mine. God, I love him.

I don't wanna do any of this if it's not with Jermaine. He's the only one I'll ever allow to have me scream his name.

"I want this." I pulled his face down and kissed his lips as I felt him slowly move his hips towards me. His tip hit my wet folds and we both immediately groaned. "Put it in." I grabbed his butt as I pushed him down on me and felt his tip move inside me. "Oh!"

"Relax, babygirl." He kissed my neck as he slowly pushed further, making sure to have me feel every single inch of his little friend.

He started to thrust slowly and I couldn't help but keep moaning as loud as I could. The neigbors sure as hell were hearing me. "Yes, baby!" I moaned as I held Jermaine's back tightly. He knew exactly where to put himself in order to have me scream his name is delight.

I'm so happy Lorenzo isn't home.

"I love you," he whispered in my ear as he continued to pleasure my lower part with his sweet, hard thrusts. "I love you so much." The only sound that filled the rooms were my moans, his groans and the sound of his balls slapping against my skin.

"I'm..." I groaned as I couldn't even get out my words. "I'm gonna cum!" He kissed my lips to keep me quiet and I couldn't help but tighten and cum around him, making him groan and close his eyes in pleasure.

Jermaine twitched inside me and I soon felt thick, warm liqued fill me as he growled and stayed on top of me. He kissed me and pulled out very slowly, leaving me sore and I could barely close my legs without hissing at the pain.

I turned over slowly and looked at Jermaine who was trying to catch his breath. I put my hand on his chest and slowly traced his muscles. "I love you so much more." I snuggled against him, hearing his heartbeat soothes me down every damn time. It sounded like a song to me.

As he put his arm around me, I closed my eyes and my thoughts drifted away.

I know this was wrong. Because we aren't even together anymore. We didn't just do this because we felt sexually attracted to one another. No. Jermaine and I did this with a passion and we always have.

This wasn't sex. This was making love and I'd only do this with one person. And that person is Jermaine.

I can't deny my feeling for him and knowing we can't be together hurts me. I don't want to hurt him, but I'm so scared to lose him again.