Pieces Of Me

Chapter 15

The weeks passed and the team did what they could – next to the other cases that came up their desks – to find out more about the homicide on Leah's parents.

Meanwhile, Leah's baby bump was growing and she had to go to her gynecologist regularly. Whenever Spencer found time, he joined her and was always in awe when he saw his unborn baby.

"You should avoid any stress. At least as often as possible", the gynecologist said and looked at Leah. She gasped. "Is...is my baby alright?" Suddenly her heart was pounding hard and fast against her chest.

The gynecologist smiled at her. "Yes, it is. I'm telling this to every expectant mother." Leah let out a sigh of relief. But she knew her doctor was right. She had to calm down, she had to take deep breaths. The BAU was working on her parents' case and there was nothing she could do. So there was no reason for Leah to freak out or stress about it. She couldn't change a thing anyway.

So she promised that she'd take care and then left the doctor's office again, a new picture of her baby in her bag and a little smile on her lips.

Leah couldn't wait for Spencer to come home so she could show him the new picture. Instead she made her way to the bureau as she knew that the team wasn't away today. When Leah stepped through the glass door, she saw Spencer immediately jump from his chair as soon as he had seen her.

"Leah! What are you doing here?", he asked surprised and wrapped an arm around her shoulders to lead her to one of the chairs. "Spence...I can walk on my own, thank you", she murmured. All the people around her tended to mother her all the time and Leah had started to get annoyed by every teeny thing they did. She could walk alone, she could do laundry alone, she could go to the grocery store alone. She was a grown up woman who could look after herself and the fact that Spencer, Derek, Penelope, Emily and all the others tried to make her relax all the time, brought Leah to a point where she had a hard time to hold back her emotions.

"Are you alright? You're a bit pale." Derek had stepped to them, followed by an excited Penelope. "Dear, would you like some tea? Or hot chocolate?"

Leah took a deep breath. No, she wouldn't lose her temper now. She would remain calm. She'd be nice. "No, thank you", she politely said and smiled at Penelope. "Did you guys find something out about my biological parents?"

Leah knew, she was asking the same questions day after day, but the team still had no clue what could have happened and who could be the unsub. And Leah just couldn't stop thinking about what had happened. Sometimes, when Spencer was away on a case, she couldn't find sleep and tossed and turned around in bed, thinking about her biological parents. She wanted answers. She needed answers.

"Nothing worth talking about", Penelope sighed. The others nodded and Leah let out a frustrated groan.

"Don't stress yourself, dear!", Penelope quickly said. And that was it. Leah stood up from the chair again.

"Stop telling me what I should do and what not!", she exclaimed. "I'm pregnant, not sick, goddamnit! I can handle this! I can take care of myself, I know what to do! So stop telling me what's good for me and the baby and what's not! I can't hear it anymore! I'm not fragile just because there's a baby growing in my stomach! And if you go on acting like this, I swear to god I'll go insane!"

Leah's voice had grown louder and louder with every word, until not only Spencer, Penelope and Derek stared at her, but also the other members of the BAU. Leah didn't care though. She was breathing heavily and glared hat her friends and her boyfriend.

Said boyfriend stepped slowly towards her after some seconds of silence. No one dared to say a word anymore. "Leah...", Spencer started and when she didn't move, he gently wrapped his arms around her and placed a kiss on her forehead.

"Sorry, darling", he quietly said, "I guess we were too worried about you possibly getting stressed." Leah sighed and slightly leaned against his shoulder. "It's stressing me that everyone acts like I'm fragile and sick. I'm not. So please don't treat me like this." She was calm again and a little bit embarrassed by her emotional outbreak. "I just...I want to know what has happened all those years ago. I can't...I can't be a mother without knowing who I really am", Leah now confessed and everyone nodded. "I'm sorry my emotions are like a rollercoaster lately."

Penelope came closer and wrapped her arms around Leah as well. "No, you don't have to be sorry, sweetie. We have to be sorry", she mumbled, her head leaning on Leah's shoulder. "We all love you and we're just worried about you and that little baby inside you", she said.

"I know", Leah responded, "but it's getting really annoying. If I'm not doing well, I'll let you know, okay?" She smirked now. Of course all the people around her only wanted the best for her and they cared because they were her friends.

"Okay", Penelope sighed and let go of Leah again. Spencer though didn't pull away.

"I'll bring you home", he said and the way he was speaking didn't allow any protest, so Leah said goodbye to the others and let Spencer drive her back home.

"I'm sorry I'm like that", she murmured as she stared out of the window. Spencer glanced at her shortly before he concentrated on the street again. "What do you mean, darling?"

"I mean that my moods are like a damn roller coaster!", she groaned and threw her hands in the air. "One moment I'm happy and good and then, one second later, I'm annoyed and pissed off by literally everything and everyone."

Spencer let out a short laugh by her words. "Leah, that's normal. And I'm okay with your mood swings." He reached out to grab her hand and gently squeezed it.

Spencer left again as soon as he had brought Leah home. He still had work to do and he promised Leah that they'd do everything to find out more about her parents. She kissed him goodbye and then lay down on the couch for a while. She felt tired all of a sudden.

But there was no chance she could find some sleep. Her thoughts were running through her mind and didn't seem to stop any time soon. Feeling annoyed and restless, Leah got up again soon and went to her bag to grab her phone. She needed distraction and would call Billie now. Maybe her friend would have got some time to spend with her.

"Leah, what's the matter?", Billie answered the call. Leah let herself sink on the couch again and let her fingers run through her hair.

"Uhm...have you got time? I'm at home and need distraction or I'll go insane", Leah explained why she'd call at lunch time. But Billie started to get excited almost immediately.

"Oh yes, I've got lunch break now, let's go window shopping! Maybe we'll find a shop who sells clothes and stuff for babies!" Leah had to laugh at Billie's words and told her that she'd wait for her to catch her up.

Only twenty minutes later Leah and Billie were walking down the street, looking for a shop with baby clothes.

"Look, over there!", Billie all of a sudden squealed and dragged Leah with her to the other side of the street, where she had spotted a shop. "Not so fast!", Leah exclaimed, but she didn't stand a chance. Her best friend was incredibly excited.

So they entered the store and it just took about one minute for Leah to be in awe. So many small, cute clothes! So many beautiful things for babies! She strolled through the store, taking something every now and then to look at it closer.

"Oh, look at this!", Billie exclaimed as she held up the cutest body Leah had ever seen. It was a rosy one with kittens on it. "You should totally buy this!", Billie continued. Leah bit her lilps. They didn't know yet if the baby was a boy and a girl. What if she bought this now and she'd have a boy?

"Ah, whatever", she murmured after she'd placed a hand on her baby bump and grabbed the body with the other. Billie beamed at her. "I could buy so much from this store!", she said and Leah nodded. "Yeah, me too...But this will be the only thing I'll buy now. I don't even know if I can ever use it! What if the baby's a boy?", Leah asked, but couldn't hide a grin. She was glad that she'd called Billie to get some distraction. And buying baby stuff was definitely a distraction she liked.