Never Give up (Complete)

The funeral

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My best friend my only friend, my mom she gave birth to me protected me from all the horror.  Dyed yesterday i don't know how to handle this i know my dad is very abusive, and my mom always stopped him from ever hitting me. I don't know how hard he will hit me, or if he will hit me at all. I know that hes tried to hit me multiple times but my moms always stopped him. I don't know if its because all the pain inside him crippling up from my mothers death or if its just for fun. All i know is he is gonna hit me one point in my life and i know ill have to take it. I don't know why my mom ever took my dad back because he has always been so dangerous, i mean he shot a guy for tripping over my moms shoe. These next four years of my life are going to be hard for me wish me luck. 

Once we were in the hospital waiting for my mom to get better my dad comes out in the waiting room to break the bad news to me. I try to run into the room to see my mom and tears start running down my face. I try to jump over the doctors arm as they try to stop me but that didn't work that well. 

"No ones aloud in there yet!" the doctor says to my as i slowly go to the floor bawling my eyes out. I turned to see my dad have the biggest smile on his face, i get up to confront him (this is the first time i ever confronted him!) I walked right up to him and slapped him, "How could you be happy about this i hate you, you hear me???? I hate you!!!!" I broke down again looking into his furious eyes suddenly my eyes filled with fear, and tears. I sat down on a chair and cried my eyes out. When none of the doctors where around my dad got really close to my face and said, "The only reason i'm happy your mom is dead is because i get to do what ever i want to you, and I've always wanted her dead and my dream is finally coming true!" i just felt everything from my life all the sad points boil up inside of me. I could feel the water falls coming again, i let it all out i was shaking with fear i didn't want to go home. I wanted to live here now, "Can i stay here forever?" i thought, the doctors came back out and looked me right in my face. "You can go see her now before they take her to her grave." My dad started walking out the door, "Hey aren't you gonna wait till i'm done seeing mom?" "You can walk your ass home!" he said my mouth drew wide open and stayed there until he left. All the doctors where looking at me, i started to cry even more. I ignored it and walked into the room my mom was in, and sat down on the bed next to her feet. "Hi mom i know you probably can't hear me but i just want to say a couple things before i say bye, i don't want you to leave me, i know you had no chose why did god have to take you so early i'm only 12, i still need my mommy to feed me, i still need my mommy to protect me from all the bad people, i still need her to sing me a bed time story, and i really need you to tell me everything's going to be OK, i know its not going to anymore. I'm scared about going home, i'm scared he will hit me, i still need to be older to take the hits and to fight back. i still need my best friend!" i started to cry but tried to be strong in front of her, i looked up and continued. "Why did he ever want to hit me, i can't control this, he told me i had to walk home but i don't want to go home. Ha this isn't sposed to happen!" i raised my voice a little. " I've never cried this much in my whole life, mommy i need you mommy mommy mommy" i shook  her a little bit the lied down on her chest. "Mommy come back! i miss you" i started crying more and more. Then my eyes get heaver and my world went black. 

A bright light comes out of no where, is this a dream? I see my mom off into the distance "Mom?" i run to her with nothing stopping me until i run into this clear glass wall. My mom and i are both confused, "Mommy i can't hug you!" 

"That's ok honey i only have enough time to tell you this before you wake up." 

"What is it tell me tell me tell me." 

"The man, behind the darkness, the man behind the cloths, the man you seek, the man whos behind the wall, run and hide find your own little safe place before he kills us all!" 

Then i wake up