It's an abrupt feeling.
I get it every so often.
In the pit of my stomach.
Life is shit, life is pointless, life is too full of ache.
I don't know why, but every so often the thought and feeling engross me.
It's like my life can be going great, yet somehow this feeling makes me want to just not be alive.
I don't want to die, but rather cry and ask myself why....? Why....? Why....?
It makes me feel as though everything is unsatisfying, everything is pointless, everything is hurtful.
Life just seems so empty...
When the feeling finally fades, I simply wait for it to come back.
I wait for it to bring tears to my eyes and leave me asking
"why am I even alive?"
Maybe the feeling never truly goes away, but only fades every so often to let you cry.
Once you're done crying, you think about it again and it truly never ends...
