Daybreak

One.

Miller

Do you believe that there's a destiny? That someone's connected to you at the very beginning.

Well, that's full of bullshit.

There's no such thing. For me, we make our own future. You can never have anything without even trying. You need actions.

If you're thinking I'm bitter in life, then you're wrong. Like a typical girl, I live normally.

May boyfriend. Mayaman. Maganda. Matalino. Almost perfect, right?

I had that all because I made it. Paano nagkaboyfriend? Nag-ayos ng sarili at naging open for boys. If you're too stiff with them they won't felt that you're interested. Only the tension that you are not comfortable with them will be felt if you won't loosen up. End game? They won't entertain you. Mayaman ako dahil masipag ang parents ko but not only that, I have been helping them with business even though I haven't finish my degree. I work just fine. My parents were proud enough to have me. I study hard too. That explains why I get good grades. I never slack off.

So tell me, how can we get what we want if we didn't deserve it?

The only thing I hate the most is the unplanned event. They just.... irritates me. Imagine, I have plan all my way for this day, then suddenly a Professor didn't come to class. So irritating, isn't it? Or you wake up in a sunny day and at the end of the day it rained heavily. That's the worst thing I can ever imagine! Going home stinky from the rain? Eww.

NAGLALAKAD ako sa hallway ng mabilis. All the student suddenly jolted from the middle and gave way to me.

Maarte. High maintenance. Matapobre. Ilan lang yan sa bansag sakin. I don't mind. Call me whatever, I don't give a fuck. They are just loads of pathetic person who's not happy with their lives so they came up gossiping and talking about me all along so they can make their life worth living.

Dumaan ako sa gilid ng soccer field matapos sa hallway. Actually, mas malayo ang nilakad ko dahil pwede namang sa field na agad ako dumeretso ng lakad para makapunta sa kabilang building. Ayoko lang maarawan ng matagal kaya dumadaan ako sa hallway. Wala na lang talaga akong choice dahil wala nang lilim pa at obligadong masilayan ng araw. Well at least I prevented to be expose that much, right? Bakit ba naman kasi ang laki at ang luwang ng school na to? I prefer a simple school than having a hard time going to class.

Ngumiwi ako dahil nasisilaw na ako sa araw. It's June so I expect rainy days. Bakit mainit ngayon? It's as if today's the season for Summer.

How I hate this kind of event.

"Watch out!"

Too late. Napahiga ako sa maduming damuhan nang matamaan ako ng bola. Parang umikot ang buong daigdig sa pagkabagsak ko. Nanatili akong gulat at hindi makapaniwala sa nangyari.

Maya maya, nagsilapitan na ang mga hudyo at pinalibutan ako.

For Pete's sake they are all sweaty!

How I hate what's happening today!

"Are you alright?" May isang pangahas na humawak sa kamay ko at tinayo ako. Nagpupuyos ako sa galit at pilit pinapakalma ang sistema ngunit nanaig ang kasamaan.

Napaawang ang labi nito nang titigan ko siya.

"Dont. Touch. Me. You're dirty!"

Kaagad naman nitong itinaas ang kamay.

"Easy. I was just trying to help."
"Who hit me?"

Nagkatinginan ang mga lalaki, wari'y nag-aalangan kung magsasabi ba ng totoo o hindi. Again, I repeated the question. This time, I asked with conviction.

The guy in front of me cleared his throat. "I am."

And that's when I lose myself.

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"Did you lift?"

Pinukol ko siya ng masamang tingin. Siya naman ay tumawa lang at napahawak sa duguang bibig. We're here in the Guidance office. After hitting the annoying guy, a Professor saw us and reported us to the Dean which lead us here. The councilor wants to talk to us after being reprimand by the Dean. He gave us some works, of course.

"For a girl, you're too strong. Too bitchy."
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "Thanks."
"And you are proud?"
"So what if I am?"
He shrugged. "Cool. Never met someone like you."
"Don't fall for me." I said. "You'll just break your heart."

Again, he laugh wholeheartedly. I wanted to strangle him for that. What's so funny about it? He's weird.

"I'm Miller."
"Kay."
"You won't tell me your name?"
"Why would I?"
"So we could be friends?"
"After what you did to me? Hell no!"

I thought that's our last encounter but....

I was walking to the parking lot when someone walk beside me. To my surprise, it's the jerk.

"Hi! Going home?"
"Obviously."
"Hatid na kita."
"Thanks but no thanks."
"Oh come on!"

He keep bugging me about my name until I reach our car. He even open the car door. I ignore him and got in the car but when he's about to close it, he lean in and whisper to my ear.

"What's your name?"

My whole system shook as I felt his breath in my nape. I shuddered and slap him in reflex. He cursed in pain.

"You really love hitting me, huh."

I'm surprise that he didn't throw a fight for what I did. I applaud to that. May galang sa babae.

Pinabayaan lang nyang umalis ang sasakyan. He just stood there, pinapanood ang sasakyan sa malayo.

I huffed and remove my gaze to him.

Why did I felt so....