Hopeless love

Chapter 1: He's not coming?

Chapter 1

Katniss P.O.V.

He's coming home tomorrow!

I can't say that in my head enough times to really understand what it means.

Peeta is finally coming home tomorrow. I haven't seen him in six months now. I really miss him.

We've been best friends since I can remember. No I mean way back... Like back to kindergarten time. Not kidding. So yeah, we've been friends for a really long time.

But I also feel something else for him. I have for about a year. But when I decided to tell him, he told me that he got a callback and had to leave. If you don't already know... Peeta is a soldier. So he has been in Afghanistan for the past six months.

I don't like him being a soldier. It doesn't go one day without me thinking of the fact that Peeta can die any second. I can't lose him. I just can't.

I don't know why he chose to become a soldier. He only had the highest grades in school, but after graduation in High School he was like "Katniss, I wanna be a soldier". Right out of the blue. Why? I mean, I know that his father wants Peeta to take over the bakery. Peeta's brothers doesn't want to take over it, they have other jobs. Besides, he had never even mentioned it before.

I'm helping out in the bakery when I have time. Peeta's parents has so much to do. It's the best bakery in the whole city of Panem.

I'm working as a singer at a café. I play piano and sing a few songs whenever I can, because I'm in collage as well, but in four days I'm graduating. I don't really know what I wanna do in life, so I guess I'm gonna keep working at the café and the bakery to help out Peeta's parents. And maybe after some time I'll know what I wanna do. But I'm only twenty, so I have time to decide. Besides, I don't know why, but the café is paying me way too much money. The manager told me that it's because I have such a beautiful voice, but I don't know. I'm not complaining though. I need the money to pay for my apartment, and I don't take money from the Mellark's I'm working there willingly without they asking me too. I would never take their money. They're trying to pay me though. But I just won't take the money.

I'm walking towards the bakery. It's sunny today. Just like my mood. It's not vevry often I feel like this. Happy. I'm trying to keep a smile on my face each day for everyone to see, but inside I'm not happy. I'm sad. That Peeta isn't home. But the thought of him on a plane back home right this minute, makes be feel the happiness I've longed after.

"Katniss!"

I turn around and see my best friend Madge jogging up to me.

"Hey Madge", I say happily when she arrives.

"Wow, someone's in a good mood today", she laughs.

"Well of course, how can I not be?" I ask.

"That's right, Peeta is coming home tomorrow, right?" She asks.

"He is", I say, feeling all warm inside my whole body, just by thinking of seeing Peeta's face again. Looking into he's eyes. Oh those eyes. I can never forget how beautiful they are. The ocean deep and clear blue eyes.

"Olala", Madge teases. "Gonna tell him?"

I nod.

I have to tell him. I didn't get the chance last time. I'm not gonna waste another day after he's home. And if he doesn't feel the same I'm gonna go and die in a hole. Okay, just kidding, no but I'm just gonna have to accept that.

Really... I don't think that he likes me. I have nothing to offer. And I mean... Nothing. I'm not beautiful like Madge or smart like Peeta. The only thing I can do, is sing. But that's about it.

Madge is really beautiful. Her light blue eyes, her long, flowing blonde hair. Her adorable dimples.

She usually has her hair up in a blue ribbon. She love ribbons, she has them in every color, but blue is her favorite. Dark blue.

My sister Prim, also love ribbons. She always wears them, but at the end of her two braids, and sometimes as a headband. She has had the two braids ever since she was little, but she likes them and so does everyone else. I also used to have two braids, but I started with one braid after I turned eleven.

"So are your mom coming to your graduation?" Madge asks as we start walking towards the bakery again. She also helps in the bakery sometimes. But she does accept the money. Not much though. She just takes it because they're nagging on her to take them.

"No", I say low.

I don't even wanna think of my mother. She lives in area 12 of Panem with Prim. If I could I would've made Prim stay with me here in the city. They lived here at first, but my mom moved and forced Prim to move with her. Ugh, I hate our mom. She was never there for me or Prim after our father died. And we she got out of her depression, she accused me of not taking care of Prim the right way. I hate her so much.

"Prim?" Madge asks carefully.

She know what I think of my mother, and why.

"Yeah, Daniel is going to get her for me", I say. "She can't go alone, or she can, she's sixteen now, but I don't want her to travel all that way by herself".

Daniel is Peetas middle brother. He told me that he would get her, because he knew that I was gonna be upset if she wasn't at my graduation. The family Mellark is coming too.

We arrive at the bakery but no one is there and the 'close' sign is up.

I frown. What? It's in the middle of the afternoon.

I take up my key and open the door. They gave me a key. They say that they trust me with it and wanted me to have it.

When we enter the bakery, we hear sobs.

We walk inside the office and see Peeta's father and mother.

Mrs. Mellark is hugging a letter while crying and Mr. Mellark is trying to comfort her. (A/N: yes Peetas mother is nice in this one)

"What happened?" I ask.

They jump when they hear me.

"It's Peeta... His not coming home tomorrow", Mr. Mellark says.

And just like that, all my happiness is gone and I'm back in the darkness.

"What?! Why?" Madge asks.

"We don't know, we just got a letter where he says that he's in Afghanistan still, that he can't come home yet and that he's sorry", Mrs. Mellark says.

NO!

"But ... I want him to come home", I whimper in a small voice.

Mrs. Mellark stands up and walks up to me. She embraces me in a warm loving hug.

"We know sweetie, we want him to come home as well", she says warmly, stroking my hair.

I feel the tears slowly flow down my cheeks.

He's not coming home tomorrow.

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Hey you guys. The first chapter... So what did you think? Good? Bad? How about Peetas mother. It's the first time she's nice in my books, a bit of a change there right? ;)

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-Josephine xx