as sweet as CAKE - kendal- cara-

still mad

- Kendall's pov-
I tried sleeping the day away but instead I just tossed and turned and every once in awhile a memory of me and Cara in this bed would cross my mind some times it was sexual sometimes it was sweet
I just hung around the apartment tears would wash over my eyes every so often

it was dark out Cara still wasn't here
I just laid in bed tears rolling down my cheeks again
I eventually stopped crying and fell asleep
cried my self to sleep is such a stereotype

i tossed and turned all night..

and this gave me time to think

alot of time to think, and i did alot of thinking

and over the coruce of the night worry turned into anger sadness turned into even worst sadness confusion about her being with some one else turned into confusion about how she could leave me crying

when the morning came the mind set i was in was worlds different

i still felt like creaking down into tears but i was mad.

she left knowing how stressed i was.. and that i was practicly crying my heart out

i still was crying my heart out

i layed in bed thinking about everything like i had been for the past day

the two things that always ruined me was silence and being alone..

i had both of those things surrounding me for the past day ontop of everything else

i waited around the apartment like yesterday i was still just as pathetically sad as yesterday

i decided to take a shower

when i got out i didnt even want to get dressed ....i didnt want to do anything

but i at least bothered to put on a grey calvin cline underwear set with a thick white sweater

i thought more about me and cara

when we first met and went to the beach

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we drove to the beach singing along to the radio dancing in our seats and laughing cara was so fun

we got to the beach we both got out the side was pericing hot and the beach was rather crowded we both had on sun glasses

she took my hand I felt fire and electricity flow through me

we weaved through and walked over people

we found a empty stop

" finally" I sighed putting my bag down she chuckled we put our towels down

she was telling me about the dream she had during her nap

I took off my shirt and shorts I felt her eyes on me I blushed but I have grown to really like the feeling... a little to much in fact

she took off her floating revealing a simple black bikini but she made it look any thing but simple 

she did have a body that disserved attention

I was laying on my stomach

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how could things go from those sweet memoires to this

i looked at leo...even he looked lost why cara wasnt here, he secretly liked her better he followed her around the apartment

i scuffed, even the dog could tell she was the leader between the both of us