as sweet as CAKE - kendal- cara-

crying is like peeing

- Cara's pov- 1 week --so 10 days since the shit storm-
I was lost as dramatic as it sounds
In all the movies and fairytale they talk about heartbreak and true love .. but they don't talk about being lost and floating with a broken heart

and by floating I mean I couldn't go back to my old ways and Kendal wasn't a option

and I wanted to .. God I just wanted to be able to do something weather it's be with Kendal or hook up with those girls but I couldn't

the hooks ups seemed un-interesting and pointless they still called though and I turned them down

I just couldn't hurt Kendal even though she thinks I did
I had been thinking a lot

but it wasn't the productive kind of thinking.. it wasn't the life changing all inspiring gleam of ideas

no . .. it was memories of Kendal that made me miss her more and blame my self more

I remembered karlies party we went to in New York how she was blissfully drunk in the taxi with me Selena Justin and Jourdan and her boyfriend but they were both asleep

I remembered her sitting on my lap with her arm around my shoulders how she pulled on my lip and put that candy in my mouth sweetly like a child wanting to share

I remember when we were in the shower at her parents house how she had her four head on my shoulder looking down at my chest and torso with her hands lightly on my hips when her lustfull gaze was on me I felt like I had all the confidence in the world

I remembered laying with her in bed how she would curl up to me but still hold me how she did everything with love and softness
how could Harry hurt that?

how could I hurt that
and i have twice now

I realized I had been silently crying on my balcony I was sitting on my leg in a cushioned chair with the other pulled knee to my chest I rested my elbow on my knee I loosely had my finger on my lip as I sniffled but crying and tears were like peeing
once you have started you can't stop

- Kendall's pov-
my apartment i used to have with Harry was huge it's even bigger with a broken heart it was dark grey metal and Modern so I got Khole to drop off my dog buddy he had seen My cry a lot

he slept in the bed with me but even with him here I was still alone

buddy couldn't put a band aid on a cut from me being clumsy
buddy couldn't kiss my four head and tells me he loves me then wrap his arms around me at night
buddy couldn't snap me out of a bad day with his British ascent
he couldn't kiss me making me melt with fire and electricity flowing through me and taking over my mind

but the person that could do that wasn't happy with just me
I still worked even more so now

I talked to my three sisters on the phone when they called I haven't talked to my parents

my freinds awkwardly took sides between me and Cara

I was walking in the lobby getting my mail I herd a chuckle

I looked around I saw the front desk girl flirting with Cara ... I hadn't seen her in almost a week in a half but it felt like forever it felt like months she looked stunning some how in casual clothing the girl looked at me and winked I looked away I was standing at the elevator waiting for it my eyes started watering " dammit" I whispered " hey are you okay?" some guy asked I looked up at him chuckling " I just stubbed my toe a couple of seconds ago" I said he chuckled I wasn't attracted to him but he looked like a male model I could feel Cara's burning glare " oh I'm
not a stalker I'm waiting for the elevator to" he said we chuckled he had his hair in a hipster-fuck boy hair style with a baby blue button up those preppy shorts white boy's seem to love with moccasins his phone rang he sighed " well I hope your toe gets better " he said I chuckled as we walked away
-Cara's pov-
I walked up to the front desk
ugh Bailey was working today I got really drunk once and slept with her now she always flirts with me I flirt back but it's all a game" hey delevigne " she said I smirked

I leaned on the counter she drowned on about something  I just smirked and nodded " I meen it's pathetic really to see him try and try and she is a bitch " she said she winked at some one off in the distance it was a evil wink I looked Kendal obviously was watching is she looked down at her mail and muttered to her self  Bailey chuckled " you shouldn't do stuff like that" I said looking at my mail she scuffed " since when do you give two shits about any one but your little freinds  " she said  some white fuck boy was talking to Kendal he chuckled he had to take a phone call and he walked away"I just- don't do that shit... it's immature and petty " I said looking at my mail " who bit your ass" she said as I walked away rolling my eyes 

a part of me wanted to talk to Kendal another part of me was to embarrassed for something I didn't even do and then there was like %1 of me that wanted to sleep around and drink so this a wouldn't hurt so much but I now knew more about relation ships and love do I knew sleeping around and getting drunk wouldn't solve anything  I was still clueless and new to the whole love thing
-2 days-

I was at the grocery store my phone rang I answered it and continued down the lane with my cart

" hey you need to come out with us tonight"  Jordan said I sighed " J you know why I can't" I said " I know I know- you can't risk hooking up with some random bimbo " she said " mhm" I said putting some juice in my cart " babe working them sleeping is no life to live"  she said " Jordan life dosent always have to be exciting " I said " yes" she says slowly agreeing with me " but life also dosent have to fit the sound track of cry me a river " she said I chuckled " look my idea is worlds better then Selena " she said " oh god" I said " she was planing a intervention " she said I chuckled " Gigi and hailiee are practically dragging Kenny out of her apartment- you know she got a dog it's a horse but the  most adorable horse ever" she said " J no offense but I'd rather not hear about Ken right now " I said " I meen Kendal " I said professionally

- Kendall's pov-
I was sitting at our usual maroon and dark wood huge booth at sunflower hailiee Selena Gigi Taylor Jourdan and... karlie
why was she here?
and sitting next to Taylor I couldn't keep my eyes off karlie how could she do this and have the nerve to act like nothing's wrong
- selenas pov-
we were eating " I'm telling you this shut won't fly" Gigi said eating to Kendal " I said hang on I'll be out in five minutes I just got out of the shower?" Kendal said chuckling " me and Gigi had to practically pull you out of your apartment" hailiee said " I was getting my phone?! "she says we laughed

I watched Kendal she was watching karlie every time karlie said something Kendal would just put her fork in her mouth  Kendal looked down at her phone she was scrolling through insta gram she was still following cara

we were talking about different things Kendal was still eyeing karlie I don't even think she knew she was doing it " Kendal " karlie said " hm" Kendal says sipping her tea " i-can we talk" she said " I know what your going to say." Kendal said " what-what will I say" karlie says annoyed that Kendal would think she would do that " your going to say what Cara said- that nothing happened " she said " I- yeah" karlie said Kendal got up and put down some money " look I know you have been her friends longer then I have known you- so I get it I do- but she plays girls Selena you said it yourself you can't blame me for believe the world when they say she cheated .." she said then left " nothing happened " karlie told Taylor " why is she so pissed then" Taylor asked " I don't know she is younger then us... Harry cheated? " karlie said " she is younger then us I'm 23" i said " im 21" gigi said " she is 20" gigi said "wait how dose she drink?!" jourdan said "no one cards her i guess" hailiee said chuckling 

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sorry there have been short updates or chapters im kinda at cross roads with the story again but i hope your not to annoyed at the recent problem between them but if you are annoyed ..im not sorry