Trigger Warning//Phan

Chapter One

Music: (i listened to while writing)
LA Devotee~Panic! At The Disco
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Trigger Warnings: abuse, bullying, depression, suicidal thoughts, homophobic slurs, self harm.
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I really dread this time of day, but maybe it wouldn't happen today I silently prayed. But the bell rang and I knew today would be no different.

I don't know what the teacher talked about or how to do the homework. That's what happens when you spend a period worrying about what was going to happen to you after it. And sure enough now all I had to do was turn the corner and I would find out.

The halls had cleared already as it was time for lunch. So I stood in an empty hall with two other people. Them. I took a step wanting to get to the library while everyone was at lunch. But as soon as I took a step into the hall both of their heads shot in my direction.

I'm sadly able to say that I have been through this so many times, it has became part of my day. The words said to me, I've heard them all. There is not one part of me that they haven't punched or kicked. I don't blame them, i deserve it all.

"Hey fag" that's me, okay that's not my name but that's what I am called. By him anyway. My real name is Dan.

I looked at them and the bigger one started walking towards me and he followed him, keeping his head down. Before I knew it I was being punched my jaw. It was hard and I knew it would leave a bruise but where isn't there on my body.

I snapped out if my thoughts when I felt a fist collide with my gut. Which lead me to bend over and clutch my gut. He then grabbed my neck and lifted me just above the ground. He looked me in the eyes and spat in my face "we don't need fags like you. why don't you do everyone a favor and kill yourself."  I've thought about that too, maybe I will. He let go and I dropped to the floor everything hurt both mentally and physically.

He walked away laughing to himself, the other one just followed him silently turning around with sorrow in his eyes then walking away again. I picked myself up and walked towards the toilets  so I could clean myself up as I would any other day. No one was in there, thankfully. I looked in the mirror and I look like shit. Bags under my eyes, a huge red mark on my jaw. He normally stays away from the face to keep attention away so no one gets suspicious. I hadn't realized I was lost in my thoughts again until the door opened.

Out of everyone in this school, it had to be him. Phil Lester. The person that watches this happen daily, but he's also the one that said he would always be there for me. Oh how the times change. He might not hurt me, not physically anyway but I still fear him so I subconsciously backed up into one of the corners near a stall. "Dan, please I am not going to hurt you. I want to  help you and talk to you." He spoke calmly and his voice was soft.  I wanted to yell at him and run away but instead I walked towards him.

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AN: HEY:)))) so Idk where this is going but i know its gonna be sad :)

Disclaimer..... So the book is called trigger warning because the entire thing is one. I am not going to specify what kind of triggering things will be in the chapters but i will say 'trigger warning' ily and stay safe....

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