My Sister : My Mother ( C O M P L E T E D )

Chapter 7: Tears

The room feels so empty the moment he left, it felt so empty that my tears are slowly pouring down from my eyes.

Flashback of  memories came flooding down, all the heartache, the pain, the suffering I've been through for all these years, flood like a water on a stormy day. They gave me strenght, they gave me hope, and they gave me the will to live.

Now that the biggest lump in my heart has been removed. I can now be free from the nightmare of my past, I can now be whole again.

Time will know,time will tell.. And when that time comes I'll be whole again..

I heard a knock on my door, I expected it to be him but I was wrong. It was just a nurse checking for my vital signs.

For a short period of time that I've been with him, an unknown sensation is creeping in into my system.. I don't know what it is but I'm sure that it will bring happiness to me someday..

How could life be so playful? The man who broke me, is also the man trying to fix me now. His trying to mend all the broken pieces he cause me. He knew that I knew that this is not his entire fault, but his willing to sacrifice everything for my sake.

People can be selfless when they are inlove, and I wish in the future I could be like him too. To be unconditionally inlove with the person who loves me back.

I heard another knock, but this time it's no longer the nurse but my sister from another mother, the only bestfriend I have.. Destiny bring us together, time molded our bond and know mas naging matibay pa ito.

"A-Ashia" she said as tears came falling down from her eyes

Her eyes says it all, she already knew about what happen in the past. And she's trying not to look guilty on what happen..

" Come on Niko, it's okay" I smiled at her

" Wala akong mukhang maihaharap sayo Ashia, d-dahil sa kapatid ko, d-dahil sa kanya----" siya

" Hush now Niko, no ones to blame. Past is past, the wound in my heart is slowly mending, the pain is no longer there. Let bygone be bygone" I said

" Ashia" she cried as she enveloped me into a tight hug

" Thank you for everything" I said as I hug her back

" No Ashia, thank you, thank you so much" she sobbed

We've been silent for half an hour, sinasamsam ang katahimikan..

" Ana will be here" she said out of the blue

" Really?" I answered

" Yes, so you should be presentable. This is the first time that you will be with your daughter face to face" she said

Tama nga siya, itu ang unang pagkakataon na makikita ko at makaka-usap ko ang anak ko sa personal. Hindi ko mapigilang maiyak. Sa loob ng pitong taong paghihintay, sa loob ng mahabang panahon ng pangungulila ko sa anak ko, sa wakas makakasama ko narin siya. Sa wakas ang matagal ko ng pinapangarap na sandali ay magkakatotoo na...

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Quarter to seven ng umaga ng matapos akong ayusan ni Niko, nakapagpalit na ako ng bagong hospital gown, nakaligo na ako, Niko braided my long hair, and she even put a make up on me

" Niko ako ba ginagaga mo?" ako

" What?" inosente niyang tanong

" Anak ko lang ang katatagpuin ko at hindi fashion manager" I joked

" Funny Ashia very funny" siya

" Anong oras ba sila darating?" tanong ko sa kanya

" Maybe a minute from now" she answered

" Bat ang tagal" nababagot kung tanong

" Pitong taon nga nakaya mong tiisin, minuto pa kaya?" siya

" Wait till you feel what I feel" I answered

" No thanks, o ayan na pala sila" she said

Napalingon ako agad sa pintuan and their the two most important person in my life stood still..

My mother is crying on the shoulder of my father, while he on the other hand is wiping his tears away while trying to console my mom..

" M-mom, D-dad" I called them as tears fell down from my eyes

" Labas muna ako" Niko

" A-anak, Atashia anak patawarin mo ako" my mother said as she ran towards my bed and hug me

My mom, the woman who gave birth to me, the woman I idolize since I was a kid. My precious mother..

" Mom please stop crying" I said

" A-anak patawarin mo ang mama sa lahat ng mga nagawa ko at sa lahat ng mga hindi ko nagawa para sayo. Patawarin mo ang mama kung naging makasarili ako at mas inuna ko pa ang sasabihin ng ibang tao kesa sa kapakanan ng sarili kung anak.. Patawad Ashia, patawad" Mom

" Mom please stop blaming yourself, let's all put it on the past ang mas mahalaga ngayon ay ang bukas" I said as I wipe her tears away..

It pains me whenever I saw tears coming from the eye of the very first woman that I love..

" A-ashia" he called

" Dad" I said

My eyes widen in shocked when he kneeled down and pleadingly look into my eyes..

" A-ashia a-anak patawarin mo ang p-papa. P-lease forgive me for everything that I have done to you. Wala akong kwentang ama, wala akong kwenta. Mas inuna ko pa ang sasabihin ng iba kesa sayo, mas inuna ko pa ag kahihiyang walang idinulot na maganda hesa sayo. Wala akong kwentang ama, I've been so selfish towards my own flesh. I injected pain towards my own blood. Ako ang dahilan kumbakit mas nasasaktan ang sarili kung anak.. Wala akong kwenta, imbes na maging sandalan mo ako sa mga oras na nasa dilim ka, ako pa mismo ang nagtulak sa iyu pailalim. Mapatawad mo sana ako anak, dahil kahit ako mismo hindi ko kayang patawarin ang sarili ko, mas masahol pa ako sa demonyo" he said while crying

Kahit na nahihirapan pa akong maglakad, pinilit kung makalapit sa kanya upang mayakap siya..

My father, my superhero, my first love. Malaki man ang naging kasalanan niya sa akin, ngunit hindi ko parin magawang magalit sa kanya, hindi ko kayang kamuhian ang taong nag-aruga, nag-mahal at nag alaga sa akin. Hindi ko kayang makitang nasasaktan ang kaisa-isang lalaking minahal ko..

" Dad pleasee stop blaming yourself, this is all Gods plan, this is his challenge for me. No ones to blame,  I forgave you, I forgave you both. Let us not brig back the past.. ANg importante buo na ulit tayo at malapit narin akong mabuong muli" I said

He hugged me tight, I can still remember this warmth, the warmth that can calm me down on a rainy night..

They both enveloped me on a tight hug.. for a second I feel like a child again. Feeling the warmth of my dearly beloved parents..

" Ready to meet her" Dad said as he kissed my forehead

" Y-yes" I answered

" She's really ecstatic to meet you" Mom

" Really?" ako

" Yes" Mom

Will I finally meet my daughter? Will I finally be with her?

KPNote: Next Chapter will be the Finally and after that epilogue na yeahey... Sorry po sa matagal na update.. Love kayo ni Kettle at gagawin niya ang lahat, yun nga lang hind masyadong halata... Teheee