My Sister : My Mother ( C O M P L E T E D )

Prologue

"Miss Atashia you are 8 weeks pregnant"

Imbes na matuwa sa natanggap na balita, wala akong ibang nararamdaman kundi takot at panghihinayang.

I am merely 17 years old, ni hindi pa nga ako nakakapagtapos sa senior high and now I am pregnant with my rapist child?

Yes I am a rape victim and nobody knows about that except for my parents. I was rape during some business ball my parents and I attended to. Hindi ko maalala kung ano ang nangyari, ang tanging naaalala ko lang ay ang kanyang mga mata, that blue enigmatic eyes..

And now as I look at the disappointed face of my father, and the sadness and hurt in the eyes of my mother, I can't make myself feel happy for conceiving this angel inside..

" What are we gonna do about it Francis, our child is pregnant!!"

I heard my mom said..

"We're sending her to the Philippines"

Dad said.. So they are hiding me from everybody? They are hiding us.. Bakit? Dahil ba kahihiyan lang ang idudulot namin ng anak ko sa kanila? Kasalanan ko bang ganito ang kapalarang nakalaan para sa akin?

Kasalanan ko ba kung ni rape ako ng kung sinong hudas na may bughaw na mata?

7 months later

" Uwaaaaah uwaaaah uwaaah"

My Baby finally... They gave it to me before washing her blooded torso.. My sweet little princess, my child..

I touch her cheeks and I am dumfounded when she open her eyes widely.. She got her fathers eyes

" What are we going to do about it Francis? Hindi pwedeng masira ang kinabukasan ng anak natin"

Mom said as she shook my fathers shoulder..

" Where going to adopt it"

My father's word left me hanging..

" Dad you can't do this to me, I am her mother you can't just adopt my child, your grandchild"

I said while crying as I hugged my baby protectively... No they can't do this to me..

" You don't have a choice, it's either we are the one who will adopt your child and she will grow up treating you as her big sister or will bring her for adoption, now you choose"

How could they do this to me? How could they?

Lalaki ang anak ko na makikilala ako bilang nakakatandang kapatid niya at hindi bilang ina? Masakit mang isipin pero I don't have a choice, I am still dependent to them and I am sure that I can't raised my child on my own..

At mas lalo ng ayaw kung mapalayo sa anak ko at ibigay lang siya sa kung sino...

Even though resulta siya ng kapalastanganang ginawa ng ama niya sa akin, she is still mine..

My own flesh and blood, my child

Kahit masakit man sa akin I gave them my precious possession... Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagbuhos ng luha ko, it feels like they just took my other half..

" I will send you to Paris at doon mo tatapusin ang pag-aaral mo"

And with that they left me alone in this hospital room, crying my heart out..

My Baby, My Anastasia

From that day on, hindi ko na nakita ang anak ko.. They left for New York the day na nakalabas ako ng Hospital. And after a week, they send me to Paris to finish my studies..

Wait for me Baby, sa oras na makatapos ako at makapag trabaho kukunin kita sa kanila at kahit na itakwil pa nila ako wala akong paki alam, because all I want is to be acknowledge by you not as your sister but as your mother.