i miss my mom
she's not dead or anything like that, but she isn't the same person she used to be. she's so hostile and neglecting towards me and it angers and saddens me because I don't know what I did. She'll only talk to me when accusing me of things or 'why didn't you fix the fucking bathroom' and it drains me of good memories with my mother. She's not physically abuse anymore, which is nice. And my dumbass actually believed for 4 months that she liked me and changed for me. Fuck.
