No Strings Attached

Chapter 4

I shut the laptop with a little too much force, I feel around for a pillow before smashing it against my face and letting out a blood curdling scream! I begin to feel the hot tears brim around my eyes and then suddenly trickle down my face like a stream. My legs were crossed and my face-along with the pillow- was between the space of my legs. I can’t believe him! God he’s such a damn prick!

I hate his stupid grin.

I hate his sparkling eyes.

I hate his voice and how it soothes me.

I hate how he sometimes forgets to call and yet I still wait around to see if he’ll call.

I hate how he was my first.

And I HATE how I could never, not ever, hate him.

My chest is heaving rapidly and with each breath I feel that jagged stone inside my stomach puncture me from the inside. I felt like day old jelly. Warm, unwanted, and trembling.

As my mind reels and reels with thoughts and even more reasons for my Why I Hate Louis Tomlinson list, it hits me and not the kind of hits me that you brush off and forget about it in an hour, but that kind that makes your ears warm and your heart a pounding. It feels as if a truck ran over me at 99 mph and backed it up with all its force.

I begin to laugh manically and wipe at my face, “Oh my God. I can’t believe it!” I chuckled loudly. I get up in a jolt and grab a duffle bag from inside my closet and stuff clothes haphazardly into it.

I quickly texted Niall, who tends to stay up all night (no pun intended!) , Hey what city are you in and for how long?

Sydney, Australia and for another week! Why? ._.

Oh cool just it’s for a paper I have to write about. Thanks butt muncher!

You want to surprise Louis don’t you?

NO I just want to finish my paper ok!

Jaime do you like Louis? :o

Yes fine okay I do! I actually LOVE HIM and I need to see him tomorrow and I’ll see you tomorrow afternoon okay?

OMG WTF!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!? Why haven’t you told me?

Niall I barley figured it out ok? You’re the first to know so zip it!

I will Jaime I want you to be happy but ugh are you sure about this?

More than anything in my entire life! :-)

Fine. I’ll see you tomorrow. I’ll pick you up at the airport ok?

YES THANK YOU!

You’re welcome butt muncher.

And with that I went to bed my mind going haywire about what lay ahead! I mean this could be it! I always wondered why I was always mad at him for stupid things and whenever he left, but by God I never thought it was because I loved him! I laughed whole heartedly and turned on my side and slowly drifted into a sweet slumber, excited for tomorrow and what would happen after I told Louis.