Heart Attack (Trey Songz)

Chapter Nine

"I am sick and tired of your apologies. If you were truly and deeply sorry then yo ass would haven did it." I said tearing up. "I know." Tremaine said. "I ended it though." Tremaine. "You think that makes shit any fucking better." I said with tears rolling down my eyes. "I know; I think I better go." Tremaine said. 

I walked up to Tremaine and smacked him in the face. Tremaine nodded his head and left my house. I busted out in tears as soon as the door closed. I sat on my couch and cried my eyes out. I wondered how the fuck he could do this to me. Tremaine is nothing but a fucking player and he and Nixie deserves whatever they get. I'm tired of all the bullshit lies and excuses. I walked upstairs and turned on my IHome. What Now by Rihanna came on. I laid on my bed silently singing and continuing to cry.

[Rihanna]

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat

I shouldn't be crying

Tears were for the weaker days, I'm stronger now

Or so I say, but something's missing

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me

Through the glass of a two-sided mirror

Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me

And I just wanna scream

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out, wait it out

What now, what now

I found the one, he changed my life

But was it me that changed

And he just happened to come at the right time

I'm supposed to be in love but I'm numb again

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me

Through the glass of a two-sided mirror

Whatever it is, it's just sitting there laughing at me

And I just wanna scream

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out, wait it out

What now, please tell me, what now

There's no one to call

'Cause I'm just playing games with them all

The more I swear I'm happy

The more that I'm feeling alone

'Cause I spend every hour

Just going through the motions

I can't even get the emotions to come out

Dry as a bone but I just wanna shout

What now, I just can't figure it out

What now, I guess

I'll just wait it out wait it out

What now, somebody tell me, what now

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know, oh, oh why

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know, oh, oh why

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know, oh, oh why, so what now

After the song ended, I sat up from the bed and screamed. I continued to cry harder and harder. I felt pain in my heart. It felt as if someone stabbed me in the heart. The pain that I was feeling couldn't be cured or be healed. 

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SORRY GUYS THAT I TOOK SO LONG PUBLISHING THIS CHAPTER. I DIDN'T KNOW WHETHER OR NOT WHAT THE SURPRISING ENDING TO THIS CHAPTER WOULD BE. SO NOW I'LL BE ABLE TO UPDATE DAILY LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING SO FAR.!!

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