black butler daddy

He realises his mistake

He realises his mistake, in this your dad realises his mistake and how he handles this seeing you this is from his point of view, each dad has some depression not all depressions are the same each is different, a warning some parts might be a bit sad for what they want to do from guilt you have been warned

Ciel

I can't believe I didn't believe her, why did I let what I saw be what I believed I should have known (name) wouldn't have done that to a person, and if she had of done it would have been for a good reason Sebastian's right that girl is like trancy and her father just lets her get away with it perhaps there very distant relatives

As I was out in London I saw (name) she was with lucy and ed, she must have gone to her grandparents it's the only other place she knows besides the manor, I could see she was hurt her smile was a fake one like I used to do she hadn't seen me but I knew she was safe that puts my mind at ease a little

I just watched her (eye colour) eyes where red from crying probably, why I wouldn't believe her she's putting on an act for them so they won't worry, I'm no father to her I don't know how to make it up to her or where to start

I just sit in my office or in my room just doing work from when I get up until I go sleep it seems everyone is worried about me even Sebastian, in all the years he's served me he's worried (name) doesn't know about our contract her mother knew she accepted it, but worried (name) wouldn't know me

It's ironic her biggest fear is now the other way around (name) wouldn't know her, I broke my promise to her I said I would protect her and never let her be hurt or sad and I did the last part, I hurt her more than I can imagine and I made her sad I sit in my study thinking what to do next but nothing comes to mind

I look at her note I've read and re read it thousands of times day after day the words wrote here hurt me most, she hates me the one thing I didn't ever want her to do is hate me and now she dose, if I was (name) I don't know what I would have done she's just like her mother strong, but me I don't know I broke down and let everything out the last time I'd done this was when I learned (mothers name) had died

Sebastian heard me and entered he couldn't calm me so he knocked me out, I'm no father (name) shouldn't have me in her life what father doesn't believe his own daughter, I'm a failure without my daughter I have no family no nothing my world is gone now I'm back in the black void of loneliness, my one ray of light is now gone just like her mother (name) doesn't deserve me no she doesn't

Sebastian

I can't believe I left it so long I should have told (name) sooner then she would still be here, it's been a month since she went my kitten I haven't seen her I'm afraid for her being alone, I know she's strong but against an older demon or experienced reaper she could get hurt or worse I don't want to lose her

As I was in London for the master I felt (names) presence I followed it to see her with someone she looked happy but her red eyes had no life to them, she was hurt by me I saw her look at me she glared her eyes flashing rose the woman said "(name) is something wrong?" (name) smiled and said "no it's nothing mother" and went, she made sure I heard that and she was with her mother she had found her

Why had (mother's name) given her to me if she was doing ok? even though (name) is a demon she still needs human food since she is young, it looks like she hasn't been eating she won't die but it hurts me to see her like that and to know, I lost the one thing that is more precious to me than any soul or contract my daughter my flesh and blood

I returned to the manor and went to (names) room it is still the same untouched I'm no father, I've been alive for 1000's of years but still I hurt her it's been a month since she left and the others have noticed and ask where she is, I don't say I'm a failure as a father she's right I should have sat her down and talked to her about her mother but no I didn't