Accidents Happen

Chapter 21

The car ride was silent. It felt foreign to me and I didn't like it at all. The uncomfortable silence did however help me to sober up a bit. I just stared out the window, even when Kendall reached out and grabbed my hand. I didn't move until she parked the car and I got out, easily dropping her hand.

The whole ride I was thinking about whether or not I was ready to forgive her. My life was lonely and rough without her in it but I wasn't sure if I was ready. On the elevator ride up to our floor, I began reflecting on all the great things we had done together. It almost made me smile but I didn't want Kendall to ask what I was smiling about.

When I stepped inside the condo, I noticed that the flowers I had brought her a little over a week ago were slowly wilting in a vase on the counter. It wasn't until the front door was closed that the silence was broken.

"Come sit down with me," she motioned as she sat down on the couch.

I sat down beside her and she took my hands, "Look, Y/N, I know I screwed up. I know I screwed up big time but I promise you that I will never mess up like that again. If I ever hurt you like that again I will kick myself out. You deserve so much better than this and I'm going to be better for you. I'm going to stay up with you every night and I'm going to answer all your calls no matter how stressed out I am. I won't take it out on you ever again. Just please, please, come home."

I looked into her eyes and I saw the tears sliding down her cheeks. I gently wiped them away and rested my hands on her cheeks.

"Kendall if you ever say something like that to me again you will never see me walk back through that door," I stated.

She nodded vigorously as she kept her eyes on me. I sighed quietly, "I've missed you so much. You have no idea how badly I've wanted to hear your voice and see your face."

She nodded, "I know, baby, I wanted to come get you sooner but I never knew where you were going to be and if it was anything like the club incident I would just make things worse."

I dropped my hands off of Kendall's face and held her hands tightly. I felt like she was going to disappear any second. I closed my eyes and soon enough I felt her forehead resting against mine.

"I love you so much, Y/N. I'm so so sorry.." She mumbled.

"I love you, Kendall, I love you more than you realize," I whispered back.

We stayed like this for awhile, with her thumbs gently rubbing the backs of my hands.

"Y/N?" She mumbled.

"Hmm?"

"Does this mean you won't be drinking anymore?"

I lifted my head up to look at her. I thought for a second before responding, "I'll stop. I'll sober up."

She gave me a soft smile and wrapped her arms around my neck tightly. I slid my arms around her waist and pulled her on to me lap and just held on to her tightly. It was like she was the last piece of an impossible puzzle that I had finally completed after all these years. She felt right and I didn't want to let her go.

She buried her face in my neck and felt her tears hitting my skin. I softly rubbed her back as I held her.

"I thought I lost you forever.." She sobbed into my neck.

I shook my head, "We're stuck with each other remember?"

She lifted her head to look at me, "Even after all this?"

I nodded, "I know you didn't mean it. I can see how much you regret it. This is just one mistake, Ken. I'm not going to throw away nearly a year for one thing you did wrong. The rest of our lives isn't going to be smooth sailing either. Im not leaving you for the one thing you did wrong, I'm staying with you for all the things you've done right with me. I love you more than anything in this world, I'm not going to throw it away because of a stupid fight we probably won't even remember in a year. Yeah it hurt but the thought of losing you hurts way more than anything you could ever say to me."