ANG BESTFRIEND KONG MAHAL KO...

9 - Missing You So Badly

KATIE's POV

Dahil sa success ng proposal ay nagyaya si Ken at libre nya. Di naman kami tumanggi kasi weekend kinabukasan. Napagpasyahan naming sa bahay na nila Ken humang-out. Kasama namin apat na girls sina Liam at Jason... Nag-enjoy kami ng sobra. Kainan, tawanan, kwentuhan... Dahil high school pa ay hanggang Cali lang ang pwede naming inumin para light lang ang effect at matagal, so di kami malalasing... At naisipan ni Luisa na maglaro ng spin the bottle...na walang truth... puro dare! haha Pakana talaga ni Luisa oh?!...

And Luisa started to spin... Una itong tumapat ky Liza...

"In a count of 5, i-kiss mo ang gusto mong i-kiss..." sabi ni Luisa kay Liza... di naman maipinta ang mukha ni Liza kasi nahihiya sya... sa 'ming apat kasi si Liza ang medyo tahimik, mabait at madalas ngiti lang ng ngiti... At nagsimula ng mag-count... "5...4...3...2...1..." and she kissed Liam sa cheek... Tuksuhan ang lahat kasi ngayon lang namin nakita si Liza na parang palaban na rin sa ginawa nya. She should've kissed one of us na girl but she chose to kiss Liam kaya sobrang nag-blush sya. hahaha Well, crush naman talaga ni Liza si Liam noon pa, di nga lang vulgar at showy si Liza... kaya hanggang pasulyap-sulyap lang ang peg nya hahaha And, it's Liza's turn to spin the bottle...at tumapat kay Jason...

"I-kiss mo sa neck si Luisa..."
sabi ni Liza...
Wala namang alinlangang ginawa ni Jason yun kasi walang malisya para sa dalawa..And it's Jasons turn to spin. Pag-spin nya, natapat sa 'kin yung bottle. Napaisip si Jason. "Hmmm.... dahil wala naman tayong truth, ganito na lang. Kuha ka ng paper at pen, isulat mo lahat ng gusto mong sabihin kay Red."

"Huh?!..bakit?" i asked.

"Para mahirapan kang magsulat hahaha" ani Jason

"Di ka din masyadong bully noh? hehehe sige na nga, pero spin na muna ako para di kayo ma-bored kakahintay sa susunod" at nag-spin na ako at tumapat kay Ken...

"Hmmm???...i want you to go outside your house and scream how you love this girl hahaha"

Lumabas naman si Ken at ginawa yun and i started to write...

"Dear Red,
For weeks i've been trying to stop myself to write something for you coz i've been preserving all the good words for myself kasi di na naman yun mahalaga sayo. But I guess, now's the right time for everything. I know i'm wrong coz i expected too much from you where deep inside me i know that you can't offer more than just for us to be friends, bestfriends, nothing more, nothing less. I was so wrong and i'm sorry. I don't know how to deal with this the easiest way but I'll try. Coz the fact that ME being INLOVE WITH YOU wasn't so easy at first. And now i know fully the meaning of one-sided love. It's my fault, I know. So, you don't have to worry about anything at all. I just hope that someday I may be able to move on, it may take much time but that's fine. For now, i'll just cherish those memories, sweet good memories about you and me...even if it's tearin' me apart... ;( even if everyday as i see you, i wanted to sit next to you... i wanted to embrace you with so much love...i want to kiss you the sweetest way i can... but i think, it's just good old memories to keep. And, with this sheet and a pen, i wanna tell you I LOVE YOU SO MUCH... I MISS YOU BADLY...               
                                                                       Hugs and Kisses
Katie

"Ito na oh?.. nahirapan ako i admit." sabi ko and ang bully na Jason binasa ng malakas at may mga reactions pa na sad aaahhhh.... Hahay... naiyak naman ako. "Guys, it's getting late.Mauna na ako."

"Hatid na kita sa labas..." sabi ni Ken...pero bago pa kami makarating sa highway, sabi nya...

"Mahal ka nun Kat!" nilingon ko sya and smiled..

"It's hard to expect something from someone who's not saying anything Ken." then Ken hugged me, quiet good para ma-ease yung pagka-miss ko kay Red... nang kumalas, he smiled at me and asked...

"Nag-kiss na talaga kayo Kat?"

Hinampas ko sya and I shouted,
"Bully ka pa din i swear haha"
at sabay kaming tumawa and maya-maya pumara na ng jeep at nagpaalam na ako sa kanya.

Pagdating ko sa bahay, di ko na napigilang umiyak... at umiyak... at umiyak... Ang hirap... sobrang hirap! Lalo na't mag-isa ka at walang makausap pero i admit gumaan bahagya feeling ko dahil nakasulat ako ng something for him. Mawawala din 'to... Sana... Sooner...

RED's POV

I missed Katie so much pero wala na akong pag-asa. Nung nag-propose si Ken kanina, pagka-mention pa lang nya ng name ni Katie, umalis na kaagad ako kasi ayokong marinig ang sasabihin nya. I'm having a hard time accepting it. Masakit to think na dahil sa kapabayaan ko, nawala ang babaeng pinakamamahal ko. Mahal na mahal ko si Katie. And i miss her so much! Di ko na talaga alam kung pa'no ko sya ia-approach ulit. It's my fault! And i hurt her so bad... Kung di pa lang sana huli ang lahat. Ngayon, lalo kong nararamdaman na nasaktan ko talaga sya. Pa'no na to ngayon? Masyado ng huli ang lahat... Masaya na sya... Masayang-masaya na sya sa iba...

A/N:

Sad part of the story where both of them believed that they had one-sided love... Ang lungkot naman! 😔