SAVE ME // POETRY & PROSE

iii. you can come back, but as another you

III. YOU CAN COME BACK, BUT AS ANOTHER YOU

i'm finally doing okay.
and now everyone asks about you.
when will they ever stop?
friends, family, they all wanna hear once again the story of how you broke my heart.

my heart was never yours to break,
but you took it and handled it as if you were an animal and it was your prey
(you devoured it and left me with nothing).

i had to make you throw up so i could have my heart again.
have it whole, make it mine like it was before.
before you, before them, before the pain and before the heartbreak.

but i'm a better person now.
i never needed you to love me, i just needed you to love myself.
because you love her, and that's perfectly fine.
i just loved you at the wrong time.

he's still there for me,
in a way you never learned to be
and i guess i don't you to
because i'm not sure if i could
not run back to you.

you were the best worst i ever had.
an innocent friendship that turned out so bad.

-- your mind is reckless, your heart untamed,
so who am i
to the rules dictate?