maybe it was a bad thing (Phan Sequel)

Chapter 17

Dan's POV

Phil will be able to leave the hospital soon. They are just explaining to us, what he has to do and take.

"Phil I want you to put any stressful situations aside and just focus on yourself getting better." The doctor explained to us. We both nodded. "I will also be prescribing some xanax pills. To help with your anxiety. I beg of you, do not drink alcohol, or any other medicine. As it could kill you." We nodded again.

I'm a bit worried about the pills. I've heard of xanax before. One of friends overdosed on it and past away. I can't imagine losing Phil.

"Alright, well that will be all. Have a nice day, Mr.Lester-Howell and Mr.Howell."

"As should you doctor" Phil responded.

Mr.Lester-Howell, I haven't heard that in forever. It feels so unnatural. 

Phil changed into his normal clothing and we left.

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I drove him to his apartment and told him, I'll be back soon. Since I had to pick up the children.

Phil's POV

Guilt. That's all I feel...

I'm guilty of many fuckin things.

1: I fuckin abandoned my children. I remember that day, Dan brought home the papers...
"It fuckin went through, we're going to be fuckin parents " He was so happy. I was so happy. We were happy. When we went to the adoption center, we picked them up. So they will be officially ours. It was the best day ever. Because I knew that on that day, we will become a family and we would be a fuckin great family.
But no, I just had to fuck it all up.

2: Lying, 
I lied to him so many fuckin times. The day I went to tesco, was a lie.  I wasn't actually going to go fuck Madison. I've been doing a bit of drug dealing on the side. Since I lost my job.
"Phil I'm sorry but I'm going to have to let you go."  Thats really the only sentence that could ruin a persons life. Like wtf are you suppose to do, when you have a family to support. Dan has a job, but it doesn't make much sense. So I needed this. Then I met Madison. Where a whole other situation began

3: Cheating,

It all happened so fast, I didn't mean to cheat on Dan but once I started I couldn't stop. I love Dan, but there was just something about her that felt so good. It almost felt right.
" Hi, I'm Madison. Who may you be cutie?"
"I'm Phil" I said blushing.
"I haven't seen you around, are you new" she asked sending this really cute smirk. Just her, she was so cute. I was so attracted to her.
I nodded...
Then, we just started drinking and drinking. To the point I couldn't comprehend what was happening anymore. I only new that it felt delightful. Since that day, we just continued to do it. On those moments, I would forget about Dan for a while. I just focused on her...