maybe it was a bad thing (Phan Sequel)

Chapter 9

Dans Pov

It's been a week. I miss him so much. I've been with my parents for a while now. I'm pretty sure they're  tired of having me here. The babies keep them up at night. I might move into a small apartment soon.

Oh Phil. Why did you have to go and do this to us. I want to hate him but I love him. It's a constant battle of me trying to decide to forgive him or not. I want to so bad but I don't know if I could do that. I want to trust him. He promised me he would never hurt me but he did. I'm not trying to be dramatic or anything but it hurts. Imagine if you love someone with all your heart, but then hurts you.

It doesn't even have to be a significant other. Just someone you love. Having them hurt you so much. The pain is eating you inside.

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1 week later

I found an aparment. It's really lovely actually. There are three rooms. So each kid gets one. My room is ginormous. It's lonely though. Not that the kids aren't enough. It's just that I really miss Phil. He hasn't even tried to contact me. He probably already moved on.

2 weeks later

I met this guy last night. The babies were with my parents. I went out to a bar. I just wanted to have some fun. I met this guy named Adam. He's freakin hot. He's about 6ft 5, he has brown hair, blue eyes, and tannish skin. His eyes aren't as blue as Phil's though. No Dan, get him out of your head. We're going on date in a couple of days.

5 days later

The date was wow. He took me out on a picnic. It was fun but it wasn't Phil. I love Phil. He will always have my heart no matter what. I think its time to give him a visit. I really want him back. Hopefully he wants me back too.

Phil's Pov

Life's been hard. I haven't done anything really productive. I've tried to get over Dan, as he would never love me again. A week after he sent me the divorce papers, I went to the bar. I got drunk. Had a one night stand. I've been doing for the past month. I regret it.

I haven't signed the divorce papers but I think it was the right time to. For his sake.I don't want to be holding him.

I carefully grab the divorce papers and a pen. I hesitantly signed it. There we go. We're actually broken up now. A tear rolled down my cheek.

*knock knock*

Who could that be? I haven't had a visitor since Jared came to ask how I was doing. Jared and I are friends again. I actually had sex with him. It felt completely wrong. Like I was fucking a brother. Never again.

I went to open the door.

"Dan..."

"Hey Phil. I missed you"

"Me too. Come in?"

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It's been an hour since he's been here. I apologized and he accepted. I told him I was still in love with him. Which wasn't a lie. Not matter, the amount of people I've met. He will still be my one and only.

"Oh Phil... I miss you so much. I can't live without you. I've tried but somehow you always come to my mind.I love you so much Phil. I need you back in my life" he said crying. I hugged him and told him not to cry. I didn't deserve his tears.

"Phil can we give us another shot" he asked trying to calm down. I chuckled.

"Danny, I should be asking you this." He kissed me. At first it was soft but as time went by, things  got a bit more heated.

He kissed along my jaw. Sucking at various places. I let out soft moans. "Ahh Dan. Fuck I missed you" no one I've slept with ever made me feel this way.

"I love you so much baby" he said continuing kissing my collar bone. He removed my shirt and started kissing down my chest down to my stomach. Just stopping and the beginning of my jeans. He looked up at me. He went back up and kissed me. I took off his shirt and flipped us over.

I ran my hand over his soft body. The body I missed so much. I sucked on his neck. His mouth releasing moans. I picked him up, him wrapping his legs around my waist. Carrying him upstairs. I took him to my room and laid him carefully on the bed. I continued kissing his soft skin. "Fuck Phiilll."

I tugged on his jeans. He nodded franticly. I chuckled. I slowly removed his jeans. I palmed him through his boxers.  He tugged on mine.  I got up and removed mine. I continued to kiss him on his lips. Sucking on his bottom lip. His hair slowly Turning curly from all the heat.   

I slowly pulled down his boxers.

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After we did it. We fell asleep in each other's arms. Him fitting perfectly in my arms. I missed him so much. There's no one else I'd rather be with than him. "I love you so much" I whispered. To a sleeping Dan. He had a small smile on his lips.

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Dan's Pov

I woke up in bed next to Phil. Memory's from last night came flooding in. I smiled big. I missed him. A lot. I kissed his cheek. As he was still asleep.

I looked over to his nightstand.  Where he had a picture of me, him, the babies. When we went to the park. Next to the pictures. Were the divorce paper.

Signed...

He signed the papers. He didn't want me back.

There was card under the papers.

Dear Dan,

I signed them. I'm sorry it took me while to sign them. I just can't imagine my self without you. You've made such a huge impact in my life. You mean the world to me. I've never met a person with such a kind heart like yours. Someone so beautiful. Someone with a really lovely personality.  Someone so caring, wonderful. Our perfection.  My stupidity caused me not to see that. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you.  Im sorry I broke your heart. I can't be the one to hold you back in life. You need to enjoy yourself. Meet someone new. Someone who actually deserves you. I'm sorry I wasn't the one but I only want one thing for you. That is for you to be happy. But just in case I never get the chance to say it again.  I truly am in love with you Dan Howell. I'm sorry its too late now.

                   Xx Phil

A tear rolled down my cheek. He was willing to sign  it to make me happy. I kissed his lips. He slowly opened his eyes.

"I love you Phil" I kissed his lips again.