maybe it was a bad thing (Phan Sequel)

CHAPTER 10

Phil's Pov

"I love you Phil"

Those words made my stomach feel butterflies. You don't deserve him. He deserves so much better than a lying dirty cheater. He doesn't need a waste
of space in his life. He needs someone who's actually worthy. Have you even thought about your kids yet? Stop! These thoughts need to stop. I've been having these thoughts ever since Dan left me. I've had these thoughts in high school. I just never told anybody about them. I had them when Dan and I got in our first real fight. I just thought they went away. I guess Dan's the only one that really stops them. Keeps me sane. Without him I go crazy.

"Good morning beautiful" Dan said kissing my cheek.

"Good morning, baby" I said back. Nuzzling into his neck.

"How have you been?'' he asked with a worried look on his face.
"Great. Why?" I said.

"Because you got thinner Phil. You look like you haven't slept in ages."

Honestly, I haven't. Sleeping and eating wasn't important to me. I was always at a bar, so I guess I would get full on alcohol. I didn't answer him. I was just staring at his chest.

"You haven't have you?" I shook my head.

"Baby why" he asked hugging me tightly.

I didn't respond.

"Have you eaten anything at all? Its been a month or more since we've been apart. Please don't tell me you haven't ate since we broke up.¨ He said looking really worried.

I didn't want to say anything as everything he said was true. No I haven't ate anything since he left. I just got drunk and fucked a random person. I don't like feeling alone.

¨No I haven't ate anything since we broke up. I'm so sorry but I just couldn't.¨ He just nodded and squeeze me into a huge hug. ¨I love you so much¨ he mumbled in my hair.

¨Come on lets go eat something¨

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Dan's Pov

He should of told me. Well I mean, I never even texted him, so its my fault. I should've made sure he was ok. I was just taking care about myself. I fuckin went on a date while he was struggling. For god sakes, I'm a horrible person.

After we ate breakfast. I told him, I had to go back to my aparment. He seemed really worried. I might stay there for a while. I'm not exactly ready to move back in with him. There I go again only thinking about myself.

He walked me to the door. He kissed me on the cheek. I shook my head and kissed him on the lips.

"If it's ok with you. Can I see the kids? I miss them a lot." He said shyly. I chuckled and nodded.

"Of course. They are your kids also. I'll bring them maybe later today or tomorrow." I said kissing him once again and leaving.

Once he shut the door closed. I stopped walking. I leaned up against a wall and thought about everything. I love him. So fuckin much but he hurt me. Yet he's also hurting himself. I need him. He needs me. The kids need him. I need him so much. I can't live without him...

He has my heart...

A/N: guys I'm really sorry. I know I haven't updated in forever. I'm really sorry. I've been busy with school ect. I'm not gonna bore you. Another update will be coming really soon...