(NOT JUST A LOKI STORY - this story is about many marvel characters with Esther Mason and Loki Laufeyson as the main characters - and also includes a Steve Rogers romance side story with... well you'll have to see :))))
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Once upon a time, there was...
I hesitate, not saying a word as I am taken aback by his snap suddenly. I finally realize the depth of this statement in the silence that follows it.
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His eyes are wide and full of pain like I've never seen before. What he has gone through has scarred him... and that is all of the reason he is doing this... I can tell.
All of this is because he can't see it happen again, the image of the last time we were on the field haunting him. I feel even worse now about not seeing him after we had woken up...
He loves me.
He really does... ever so much...
I realize now that his words have stunned me, a look of complete heartbreak on my face as I stand there...
There is only sheer pain in his eyes; agony he feels like he cannot escape. He shuts his eyes. "Do you know there's a delay on my end...?" he starts.
I don't know what he's talking about so I remain silent.
"...After you've died it takes me about a minute before I die..."
I think on that and then realize this... he's seen every painful and horrid death I've gone through; even the ones where he killed me himself. He's witnessed the life leaving my body, my mangled, burned, ripped, shredded body ever time I have died... This dawns on me now and makes my heart feel like the weight of a thousand pounds. My breath comes out barely in a quivering way as my eyes slightly fall from his and a shocked but heartbroken expression is plastered on my small face.
No words could express the look in his eyes, the scar that laces his green irises. And just the same no words can describe how I feel in this moment... now that he's confessed this.
"Why didn't you tell me?" my voice asks in a shaky whimper.
He swallows and his eyes leave mine.
I walk forward slowly as he looks away from me, almost in a shameful way as tears glaze his eyes.
But I reach up to him when we stand an inch apart, my fingers touching his soft cheek to turn his face towards me. He looks broken...
I feel my expression hold infinite sympathy as I look into his eyes. I am surprised my own voice doesn't crack. "If we stay together, you won't have to go through it ever again..." I speak softly and quietly. "I died because I was foolish and ran off alone... I won't do that again I promise. You can protect me... guard me... But we stay together..."
He shuts his eyes to try and fight back any painful tears.
I take my other hand and rest it on his opposite cheek, looking at him until he reopens his eyes. "...You die, I die... remember?"
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He swallows and looks at me with a heartbroken but agreeing expression.
I finally shut my eyes and pull my arm around his neck to rest my head on his chest.
His arms wrap tightly around me and he kisses the top of my head before resting his cheek there.
I feel warm in his embrace, remembering how I thought I wouldn't see him again before... but... now I am so glad to be back where I belong. He is my home.
"I love you," I whisper to him, meaning it probably even more than I did back on that buoy.
"...I love you too, my darling," he whispers back with the same meaning in his tone...
I open my eyes only to shut them again and stay in his warm embrace...
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