Starlight | NCT Doyoung

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No, why!?

“No! Andwae! Jiho-ah! Dorawa! Why leave me! Tell me why!” I ran after her, the field of flowers then burned, until I couldn't see her anymore because of the fire.

“Doyoung-ah... I'm sorry..”

[ End of Dream ]

Kim Dongyoung's POV...

“KIM JIHO!”

I screamed her name, and panted heavily. I held my chest, and tried calming myself.. Whew.. It's just a dream.. Just a dream.. No.. Please don't leave me, Jiho. Please don't.. I can't live without you.. I closed my eyes, and my tears flowed out.. Making me sob,

Nal teonajima...

It was just like before, yet.. She was here to hug and calm me down..

“Jiho-ah!” I shouted, and on cue the thunder roared. I screamed, and hyperventilated. “Doyoung-ah! What? What happened!?” I saw Jiho's face. She's not dead.. She's alive.. Oh, thank God. I pulled her into a tight embrace, and cried on her shoulder.. No, not again.. Why am I showing my weak side to her so much?

“Sh.. It's alright, I'm here.. I'm not leaving you.. Don't worry.. Sh..” She whispered, rubbing my back.. She then pulled away, and wiped my tears away.

“N-Nal teonajima...”

[ Don't leave me ]

I whispered to her, “I won't, don't worry..”

“Jiho-ah, sleep beside me.. Please..”

I was looking blankly at nothing, and she nodded. She laid beside on my bed, before hugging me from behind.. “Go back to sleep, I'm not leaving you..” I sniffed, and closed my eyes.

I miss you, Jiho.. Please come back..

I dug my hand under my pillow, and stared at the device in my hand.. This buzzer was suppose to alarm you, and you'll come to me.. If I press it.. Will you come to me? I sniffed and pressed the buzzer..

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—Paris, France—

—Kim Manorial—

Kim Jiho's POV...

I was watching television in the living room.. With Doongdoongie on my lap, he fell asleep.

It was night already, we all finished eating, everyone's asleep. Except me, I wonder how Doyoung is now? I miss him so much.. I wish he could be beside me when I sleep, I can hold his hand anytime..

I want to be beside him, yet I can't... I already feel like I don't deserve him anymore, I broke my vow to him, I hurt his feelings, I'm the one who's responsible for his sadness.. I'm the worst.. I shouldn't be the one to make him cry, I'm suppose to be the one to make him smile..

Yet, what did I do!? I broke his into a million pieces..

I felt my eyes nearing to tears again, I bit my lower, letting my eyes close. The terrorizing pain can't be stopped anymore.. I knew it, I had to bear with it for life..

I sighed heavily, turning the TV off. Carrying Doongdoongie up to my room with me. I placed him on my bed, and remembered something..

Wait..

I quickly ran to my drawer, and took out something...

..the buzzer..

I forgot to return it..

If only I could turn back time and just choose him instead of Eomma..

*bzzzzt..*

Mwo?

It's buzzing.. D-Doyoung.. He's pressing it.. He needs help... My eyes watered again, I can't come to him.. To help him.. I can't approach him.. I can't hug him..

It then stopped buzzing, and I sobbed harshly.. Why can't I just live on my own!? I don't need your help anyways!

I mentally screamed.. I was angry at myself, I didn't want to feel this pain anymore.. I stood up from my position. And walked to my window, I opened the doors and looked up at the night sky..

Stars..

They carry wishes from all people..

I wish.. To be with my love one again.. Forever..

Please hear me out.. Closer.. Come on, little closer.. I'll send my hear on the star that's brushing through the sky..

...about a span father from you..

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--End of episode 11--

A/N:

Well, get your sad faces turned around! For The incoming birthday party of Kim Jiho! Advance happy birthday Gong Myung of 5urprise! You the best! I dedicate this to: Kimmmmiie for the love she gave! Thank you! :">

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