Open When Letters

Open When... You need to hear a story

The next morning, we had some sort of an event at school. I was there for my cheerleading team, and you were there I think for volunteer hours? I remember I was running late and I lost my team, I couldn't find them at all. I entered the school and you and your friend were there. I STILL REMEMBER YOUR SMILE WHEN YOU SAW ME. YOU HAD SUCH A CUTE SMILE. THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU SMILE AND I ALMOST WANTED TO MELT INSIDE. Like a chocolate bar that has been left out in the sun, I would be that melted chocolaty goodness that still looks and tastes good, but is difficult to eat without making a mess. This is the reason I encourage you to smile more baby. Your smile is adorable and amazing even if you don't see it. Even if you don't believe me, I stand by my word that your smile is the most wonderful thing in this entire universe. So right then and there, my day was made. You didn't have to say a single word to give me unforgettable tingles. Then we split, I went to locate my fellow cheerleaders, and you were mainly all around. During the time we all decided to have lunch, I remember you gave me a cookie. I took it and said thank you to be polite but I gave it to my friend because I just ate, I wasn't hungry anymore. You got sad but I couldn't do anything. I was full and I couldn't eat anymore, but I felt really bad. So technically the first "gift" you got for me was a cookie. I remember we had lunch with our group that day. Haha, that was kinda like our first hangout outside of school but literally in school. I enjoyed talking to them, I enjoyed sitting next to you, I enjoyed daydreaming about how our date would be later that afternoon. Then my mom called me. I gave you a quick hug and left. I got home and waited for our date. It seemed like forever because you know the feeling when you're super extraordinarily excited for something, and you just would do anything to speed up the time? That's exactly what I was feeling. I just couldn't wait to see my love.

A few hours later I arrived at the mall and you were running late. I made my mom circle around the mall a few times because she didn't want to drop me off unsure if you were actually going to show up or not. Then you came and were waiting for me. I still couldn't believe it. I know it sounds like I'm making a big deal out of nothing but IT ISN'T NOTHING. It's you. And you're the most amazing, wonderful, fascinating, sweetest, delightful, cuddly, adorable, cute, attractive, caring, loving person I know and love. A girl like me does not belong with a guy like you, that's why I am still surprised to this day that you asked me out and that I am with you. Back to my story, I walked in and there you were. Looking attractive and handsome as always. I hugged chu and you kissed me on the cheek. You knew on the inside I WAS EXPLODING WITH EMOTIONS. Y o u k i s s e d m e o n t h e c h e e k. My crush for a few long and torturing months has kissed me on the cheek. His lips had contact with my skin. You knew I was showered with tingles. You could tell my happiness from my face and from the way I acted. That was of course my highlight of our date and I could not focus on the remainder of it because of that one kiss. You seemed really calm and uninterested the entire time but still, I was hoping that you enjoyed it as much as I did. You paid for me, which made me smile. Then you seemed to enjoy the movie. To be honest here, I was more interested in you than the movie. I kept on waiting for you to hold my hand and I was debating whether or not to do it myself. I decided against it because I was thinking that the guy should be the one to make the first move. So I sat through the whole movie hoping that you would either hold my hand or ask if it was ok to kiss me. Of course I didn't get that, but the mere fact that you were sitting next to me outside of school was astonishing. After the movie, we walked around and had a nice conversation. Although I don't remember exactly what our banter was about, I got to know a little more about you, as in turn you did about me. I was very eager and anxious to chat with you. With you it was quite impossible to tell whether you were enjoying our time or whether I annoyed you since you showed practically no emotions. This kinda made me disappointed, I felt like you weren't entertained by me and that I was a waste of your day. But anyway, I think we talked about our likes and dislikes, our interests, and our friends. You noticed some of your middle school peers, and I encouraged you to say hi, but you didn't. I figured it was because you were shy. Then we walked outside while we waited for our moms to take us home. I remember that your mom came earlier than mine, but you waited for mine to appear because you didn't want to leave me all by myself. Then afterward, we split for the night and went our own separate ways. It was a long drive home, and my mom gave me a lot of questions because she was interested in how our date went. I told her it was good and I told her a few small things about chu. She said you seemed like a nice kid and if I wanted to see you again, it was fine with her. When I got home, almost instantly I received a text from you saying that you enjoyed our time and you would do that again. Well I thought that was great. That clarified the thoughts I had about you not having any fun. Well now that I knew that you enjoyed yourself as well, I was ultimately satisfied. Then my little sugar plum started rapidly sending me cute and affectionate text messages that I didn't expect. I honestly don't remember what you said; all I know is that it was overwhelmingly sweet for the first date. I think you actually told me that you loved me, only on the first date. You can see why I was surprised here. You seemed half dead at the theater with no emotions and feelings, and now you were typing these incredibly adorable things to me. I knew you were shy because you didn't show your feelings in person, but it was a lot easier to express them when you weren't facing me. That was okay with me, I understood that this whole dating process is new to you and I'm honored to be your first girlfriend. But anyway, you told me that you desperately wanted to kiss me, and you were sorry you didn't. I mean I just wanted to hold hands, but a kiss would have been nice as well. Your sudden kindness and passion made me feel really fuzzy and tingly inside. And you did not stop for the next half hour. You just kept typing and typing away, spilling your emotions out to me. Everything you said to me was so sweet and loving, it felt like we've been dating for a few months. As you can tell I was shocked with all the sincere affection I was received from my crush that didn't even seem that interested in me.

In school a few days later, you were still really shy. You didn't want to show much PDA and you were reluctant to hold my hand or kiss my check at times. I understood that you were a timid person by nature around people that you didn't know well, and I respected that. I recall that once time when I was going home, I said bye to our friends, and I leaned in and kissed you on the cheek as a goodbye. You seemed so uncomfortable after that because all our friends saw and I instantly felt so bad. To me it didn't seem like much but I thought about it and realized how it felt to you, so I think I apologized later that day.

We had our first kiss on November 18, 2015. It was only 4 days after we've started dating. It was on a Wednesday. We had 2 very cute mini kisses in the industrial building after school. I made sure I was wearing mango chapstick. Haha, I just think that was a perfect first kiss for you and once again, I'm honored to have shared that with an amazing guy like chu.

Our second date was ice-skating at an ice arena. You were texting me one weekend and you proposed a question. You asked if I wanted to see you this weekend and I replied with "of course". Come on, let's be serious, why wouldn't I want to see you? You then asked me what I wanted to do, and I came up with the idea of ice-skating. You informed me on the fact that you've never been and didn't know how to, and I assured you that I would hold your hand and guide you. You were nervous but it was okay. I had to convince you that no one learns completely on his or her first time, like any sport, it takes practice to skate smoothly without falling. So then we continued with our plan. We met up and enjoyed each other's company for the next 4 hours. At first you were insanely wobbly and unstable but with each hour you improved. And honestly, you caught the gist of it much faster than I did. And look at you now. You've become so much better and advanced than when you started. And I'm very proud of you for that my love. Haha, on that date I remember we kissed a lot and took pictures, and of course we were both filled with excessive happiness and joy. I noticed how you were acting more open and comfortable around me, and it was one of the first things I noted as we got on the ice. I am really grateful for that you know? That you decided to completely open up your heart for me so that I would have partial control over it. And of course I've promised to take care of you and shower you with endless love, regardless of whether you asked for it or no. So I think our second date went incredibly well (just like all of our dates).

You know I would love to continue on forever and ever but certainly it would just be much more easier if I was there. I wrote all this out just to remind you of our unique story, of our amazing beginning, that has influenced where we are today. All of our other dates were fantastic as well, and they progressed our love to grow into what it is today. No matter how much my hand aches after this, I did this all out of love. I surely hope you see how much love, affection, emotion, and effort I put into these letters because sometimes I stood up till the very late of the night just to finish wrapping up a letter. Each one I thought out to guarantee a smile on your wonderful face, and tingles in your caring heart. I love you so much. Feel free to read this story whenever you want a cute reminder of us. Everything I do is to make you happy. I just want you to be satisfied with this relationship and with me. Did I reach my goal baby? Are you smiling? If you are then I'm absolutely thrilled. I hope you have an amazing day or night, for whatever time you needed my storytelling. I love you tremendously, and this love will never run out. Kisses and hugs from your queen.

*kitkat