Open When Letters

Open When... You need to hear a story

When I got home, usually a few hours later, waiting for me would be a snapchat from my wonderful friend. How much I loved it when my phone vibrated and it was from you. How I loved reading your snaps. It always gave me so much joy, so many uncontrollable tingles that overwhelmed me so much. It especially shocked me when you texted me at night and forced me to ask you questions. I was always confused why you did this, but I noticed that you were willing to share anything and everything with me. It was as if you placed infinite trust in me, despite not knowing me well enough. That is the kind of amazing thing that provided me with tingles that spread to every part of my body. I noticed that you always texted me first. Very rarely I would have to text you first, usually you would beat me to it. I found it amusing how you texted me so often, but never had the nerve to stare at me in the eyes and have a real conversation. Although I adored your shyness, it seemed like in person, all you tried to do was avoid me. When I was trying to do the complete opposite. All I ever wanted was to get close to you. Close enough for you to hopefully fall in love right back. For the feeling to be mutual. For us to be happy. Just thinking about how you never stopped asking me for questions, you would always ask for more, no matter if my brain was emptied and I couldn't think of any more, you begged for more and more. I would think to myself "Silly, of course I'll ask more. Anything to satisfy you my love. Anything at all. Anything that you need, I will be here for you."

One day I went to the carnival in our city. I went with some girlfriends and a few guy friends. I was really happy that day because honestly it was a really fun, exciting, and enjoyable time. I had a blast from the time I got there to the time it closed. There was only one thing that bothered me. A really big thing. I think I sent chu a snapchat of the fair and you told me that you lived super close to it, like 5 min away. Once aware of that, I invited you. I said "Come on, it'll be fun, come hang out with me." I really thought you would say yes. Because I was thinking to myself, if this guy has any type of crush on me, he must want to see me outside of school, and I'm completely not far away from him. He could easily come here if he wanted to. If he had any desire to get to know me better and hang out with me, then he would come. But of course, my hopes, dreams, and my heart was shattered. You said that he didn't like the rides. I remember you told me that you preferred the movies instead, and that was hinting to something, but it wasn't related to the current situation. I proposed that you just come here and hang around with me, we can chat and look around, we don't have to go on rides. Then you told me that you didn't want to be on church grounds. By that point I wanted to stop trying, it was obvious that you weren't into me. Nonetheless, I tried one last time. I told you that I had atheist friends who were here with me, and it shouldn't matter that it's on church grounds, it's not like we went into the church itself. You still said no, that you didn't want to. That ruined my mood a lot. My friend was standing right next to me, reading the messages as well and trying to help me convince you, but after the final no, she just hugged me and said "Aw forget about him". I tried to have fun for the rest of the time but you see how that was difficult. My crush has rejected to hang out AS FRIENDS. I started doubting if you even considered me a friend at all. It seemed pretty doubtful at the moment. I attempted to enjoy my night after that, and I did, but I would have been so much happier if you were there with me. I would have had the most enormous tingles that probably wouldn't have gone away for days to pass.

We often argue about the way you asked me out, but this is HOW I REMEMBER IT, okay? I know that you started giving me more compliments and your constant texting and communication increased. I definitely saw this as a good sign, and my love for you was thriving and growing by the second. One day I got a cute little text from my favorite person. I opened it and I start completely freaking out because there I saw a snapchat that said "Would you want to go to the movies with me?" I HONESTLY DIDN'T KNOW IF YOU MEANT AS FRIENDS OR ON A DATE BECAUSE IT SEEMED SO UNREALISTIC. I would never imagine in a million years that a girl like me would ever be lucky enough to get asked out by a guy like you. I texted back as fast as my tiny fingers allowed me to type. This is what I was waiting for. Communication out of school is exactly what I need to make you fall in love with me. I told you yes, I would love to watch a movie with you. We agreed on your nearest theater, and then you insisted that I pick the movie. Well, I glanced through the movies playing and none of them really interested me, so I told you that you could choose. I feel like you got frustrated because you spent half an hour arguing with me and commanding that I choose the movie. I already told you that I didn't seem intrigued by any of them, so you could choose one that seemed appealing to you. Once I convinced you to do that, I was still unsure whether that would be a friend-date or like a real date... So I decided to solve my issue by asking you the price of the movie ticket. If you just told me the price that would determine that we are paying for ourselves, which would mean that it is just a friend-date. If you told me that you would take care of it and I wouldn't have to worry about it, then it was a real date. My little honeycomb texted back in an instant telling me not to worry and saying that he's got it. I was so happy at that, my smile was so wide and my tingles were so evident, it was so hard to conceal and hide my emotions. Finally. This was what I wanted for a really long time. I was so eager for this date. You asked me out on Friday, November 13. You asked me what date I wanted to go to the movies, I said tomorrow. You got surprised and I feel like you were reading my texts and laughing and thinking the same thing, "This girl is really eager to spend time with me". And I was. You have no idea.