Chosen Academy

Kapitulo 12: Artemirgo; Labyrinth of Jude part I

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I don't know what to do, I can't think well. My body wants to slaughter everything appears in front of me.

"Fate," suddenly, someone called my name.

Biglang lumitaw ang isang taong nagparamdam sa akin ng kalinga. Halos wala nang mailabas na luha ang aking mga mata, ramdam ko rin ang panginginig ng aking katawan sa labis-labis na emosyong kumakain sa aking dibdib.

Napahinto ako sandali, at pinagmasdan ito, "Lola.." tawag ko rito, subalit ngumiti lamang ito sa akin. Maya't maya'y isang babae na kamukha ko, ang lumitaw sa likod ko at yumakap pa ito. "Do you know how pathetic you are?" out of the blue she blurted those words while caressing my face with her soft hand.

Kakambal ko ba siya? Bakit kamukhang-kamukha ko siya?

"Eeehh.. Now, you're confused if who the hell is me?" muli itong nagsalita.

Napasinghap ako, nababasa niya ba ang iniisip ko?

"Of course, I know what's on your mind and what shits getting played in your head, because.." she paused. "I am your alter ego," she revealed without deviation.

But behind of all she had said, my eyes remained lifeless.

"Nagsasawa ka na sa sakit na sinasapit mo, hindi ba? Why not try to kill her? It will surely make you feel at ease. You'll be free from those griefs you have burden since you were born," she requested or more likely, she's commanding me.

Oo, tama siya, napapagod na ako. Ayaw ko nang makaramdam ng sakit..

"Oh, yes, that's right. That was also the reason why you attempted suicide, after your family got burnt and died.."

Oo, tama ulit siya, I almost killed myself because of depression. I don't have any reason to live..

"They brought you in pain and suffering. They were the cause of your hatred toward this cruel world, you must kill them," she whispered on my ear. Napasinghap ako sa narinig, biglang nanginig ang mga kamay ko't naikuyom ang mga ito.

Lumakas ang kabog ng aking dibdib, nang lumitaw sila mama, papa, at si Magus, katabi ni Lola Margaret.

"There they are.. Do it," utos nito at marahan akong itinulak.

"Kill.." iyon lamang ang namutawi sa aking bibig.

"Bring out the power you possess, it's perfectly enough to get out of this mess and be at peace," she tempted.

My mind got blank and so do I. Every motion has nothing to do with my true will.

"I, Fate, the onmyouji of Fenrir," kusang tumaas ang kanang kamay ko't pumorma ang aking hintuturo. Nagsimula itong sumulat sa hangin.

"Shiki," I said without blinking.

"I bid you as your new master, I am naming you.." walang ganang kusang nagsasalita ang aking bibig. 'Di ko inaasahan ang paglabas ng nakakabulag na ilaw mula sa symbolic letter na isinulat ng aking daliri.

"Asagi, my Shikigami! Envoke!" malakas na aking utos na maawtoridad. Naramdaman ko na naman ang mga pawang maiinit na mga karayom na ibinabad sa napakainit na graba, at ang mga ito'y itinusok sa buo kong katawan. Pakiramdam ko'y matutunaw ako sa labis na init.