Revitalized

Chapter 25: Ongoing Thoughts...

But I have a feeling this baby is going to help change things for the better.

I smile at the sun shining through the window glowing the room with its rays of light.I could see a few birds out and about because it's been a while since we've had the magnificent sun grace our presence.I throw my feet over the side of the bed careful and slide my bare feet into my winter boots that are here and pull on Pauls hoody,I relly need to go shopping because my clothes aren't fitting anymore.

I live in La Push now Paul and Jasper thought it was the only way they could make sure I would be safe and secure at all times.I agreed because The Rez has always been my home and it makes me feel free with all the forest, the beach,the homes how they're separated having miles of distance in between and not 3 feet apart.

I walk out of Paul and I's bedroom.He's fixed this house up greatly it used to be a falling apart shack when his father was around but now it's becoming a home all it needs is a females touch and I can easily add that.I walk down the stairs slowly one step at a time holding onto the rail because of minor back pain and my swollen feet.

I step off the last step of the empty house and make my way to the backdoor.I breathe in the fresh air and sigh in contempt as I sit in the soft cushioned chair by the door. suddenly I hear purposely made sounds coming from the woods and a slight wolfy whine.I roll my eyes as Jared steps out from the confinements of his hiding place and he trots over to me his dark brown almost black coat shining a bit red in the sunshine.His car-sized wolf paws most likely leaving muddy paw prints on the dead grass and mud. I smile at him knowing he means well because I know I'm being watched now by a wolf or two at all times,but I don't mind it anyways.It does help assure me that there isn't something to always be afraid of.

He steps up on the porch his big wolfy eyes silently rebuking me for being outside when there's a chill. "I know Jared but i need some fresh air for a moment,don't worry so much I'm fine,"I tell him stressing the end as he pauses thinking whether or not it's safe to come close to me considering I have 2 possessive Dominant mates- Wait Jaspers mate?How did I come up with that?

He does a wolfy shrug and lazily lays on top of my feet which does help me arm up but I know he's on high alert even he doesn't show it.I'm barely able to reach down and run my fingers through his fur and he purrs at me.I giggle and scratch behind his hear and he really likes it."Jared who's found their mate in the pack or imprint as the elders call it?"I ask knowing he can't actually reply I don't know why I'm just now wondering about this.Since he can't answer I get into the topic about Leah.There is no way I could ever know fully how much she is suffering.

"You know Leah is probably dying on the inside every day now that she's the first She-wolf. Her being forced to be around Uley is going to destroy her more than ever. I'm scared she'll do something crazy Jared.I love her and she needs me when she's going through obstacles like this in her life. Sam doesn't know the impact he's had on her life...the things she's done because she couldn't handle the heart heartbreak of her ex-lover and her best friend betraying her behind her back. This isn't going to be the best few months for the Pack as you already know with The vampires,Bella,Edward,death,protecting the tribe.I certainly know Leah's going to make Sams life and mabey even your guys life a living hell.If I were yall I'd be nice to her and gentle...In all honesty, she needs you guys affection to show her she isn't some unwanted freak whose fiance dumped her for her perfect cousin because she wasn't good enough...You all need each other to get through rough times and to be able to work as one whole,as a Pack.I know she won't care that Sam imprinted on Emily.

Actually....she won't care about the meaning of an Imprint...She'll likely be disgusted and angry that she has no control over what she's got left of her broken heart that as given to Sam only to be crushed as if it meant nothing. The shy, sweet, caring, gentle, confident, loving Leah we knew is gone now.Replaced by an angry, vindictive,insecure....hateful, unforgiving,grudge holding women who's so defensive she won't even talk to her own mother sometimes.I don't want Leah to forever be hateful and angry.I know she deserves happiness and love! I know she doesn't like being in La Push anymore because she's sick of everyone pitying and shaming her and only knowing her as Leah Clearwater the girl who was dumped by the known Samuel Uley... When in fact to me she's still the strong Leah Clearwater who has everything going for her who didn't need some guy to cuddle up to.It breaks my heart that She told me once,Whats the point in living?...when I've got nothing left to loose... since sam took everything I valued and cherished away from me...I'm not worth anything , she'd said it like it was no big deal... like,like,it was something she thought on a daily basis.That I wish she hadn't been led to think those things about herself. She's lost and she needs all of us to get better whether she admits it or not."I see a drop of water land on Jared's fur and I reach up and wipe my eyes I had started crying over my best friend's broken heart.

Sad overseeing her change into someone she was never meant to be.I sniffle still wiping my eyes removing my fingers from Jared fur placing my hand on my belly.What in the world is going in in Forks and La Push? Everything is in utter chaos.

All i know is that Life has so many unexpected events that occur and no one will ever know if it'll destroy them or make them stronger and I know Leah needs someone to make her stronger and forget Uley because he isn't worth it just like Jacob wasn't worth my years of liking his sorry ass just to be let down every single time, because deep down even the nicest people are the worst people.

Hope you enjoyed the chapter that I've typed up with many difficulties on my cracked phone.
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