I don't get it!
I was happy when i woke up at 7 this morning.
And then for the last five minutes, I'VE CRIED.
I DON'T FREAKING GET IT.
PEOPLE DO THIS TO ME JUST BECAUSE.
No one understands. My emotions are like I'm on the edge of a building.
One word, one action, one person, could send me hurtleing to the ground.
It only takes that much to change my mood.
No, it's not whatever happens to specific people, it's JUST me.
I DON'T go through the same symptoms like other girls do
The problem with me is my mind.
Anyone could say the nicest things.
Like,
"I'll be there for you."
"I can't wait to talk again."
"I miss you."
"I can't wait to see you."
"I love you as a friend."
I'll try to put a smile on my face.
And, in actuality, it makes me laugh and smile.
Because, people care.
But my attitude changes when i have to leave.
Because no one understands.
I cry at night because I'm sad.
Last night was the first time I haven't in a long time.
Instead of crying, I prayed.
Not for me, but for everyone else around me.
I don't care about myself.
As long as my friends are okay, I'm happy.
As long as my family will be alright, I'm glad.
Even though I feel down, hated, and angry, I know there is at least two people that care enough to think of me.
Care enough to think about us all.
I think of you guys.
I meet you on Wattpad, and, I worry about you getting hurt.
My friend did in a car accident last year.
When I herd of it, the whole thing scared me.
But, it saddened me even more when she didn't remember anything.
Not only me, but my other friends too.
Okay, I've been going on for a while.
Writing this, kinda cheered me up.
I love you guys, seriously. (Not like that. As FRIENDS)
I hope that if you guys go through sone of the same things, you can talk to me.
I make what i go through sound really bad, when it isn't, but that is how it feels to me.
Like I said, one wrong move and I'm toast.
If you made it this far, thank you for reading this.
And I will see you guys later. Buh~Bye!
~Angela
