Window View (Incomplete)

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It's half past 4 in the early , dark morning and I can feel myself drowning in misery . My parents are only few feet away from my door , arguing and bickering about my mother's hideous affection with drugs that she constantly brings into our home . It was beginning to be too much for my soul . All I wanted to do is lye down and bury myself into a deep slumber but instead I'm fully awake , listening to raspy tones cursing and threatening each other .

I soon heard a door slam including a baby whimpering that seemed to be faded in the distance but came to life as it neared to my hearing . I knew right then that it was my baby sister , Jessie . She's only one years old .

I was tempted to get up and see why do I hear her crying but I kept myself tucked underneath my covers .

Just when i thought i was going to get some rest , the screaming increased as well as Jessie's crying . I couldn't take it anymore so I threw my covers off me , ignored my bunny slippers and ran out of my room . I entered the living room and watched my father hold a crying , terrified Jessie while my mother stood in the front door holding an overnight bag .

"Give me my baby!" She screams . Her eyes were blood shot red along with a bruise accompanying around her left eye . She had snot running from her nose and her hair that was once soft , managable , and shoulder length was now badly matted to her head . She looked sick and drunk .

"Get out Kayla!" My father yells as he rocks my baby sister . I took it upon myself to go and grab her from him before she gets in the middle of their upcoming altercation .

"Lani tell him to give me my baby." She cries . I raised my left eyebrow at her . What gives her the impression that I will be on her side ? My mother has always been a drug addict . I don't even remember a day of her being completely sober . She shows up to all of my schools events drunk and sloppy and every single time she had to be escorted from the premises . People know her as drunk Kayla as well as my mother . Its sad to say that shes indeed my biological mother .

I don't know why my father stayed with her . Over and over again , he tries to help her but she always refuse . So it has gotten to a point where he doesn't offer any help . He allows her to do whatever she wants but sometimes it gets out of hand .

"Mom just get some help." I begged . I wanted her to get help so bad . It was urgent that i wanted to see her well . 

"Lani go in your room." My father demands.

I nodded my head and did what I was told .

"You're turning my kids away from me!" She weeps as if she cares . I know she doesn't care about us . It's been evident in her actions or maybe she cares ; she just doesnt know how to control her actions . 

I went into my room and closed the door . I rocked my baby sister , attempting to calm her down . She finally quieted when I gave her some juice that I kept in my mini refridgerator .

Since she wanted to be a complete baby , I placed the nipple of the bottle towards her lips and she happily begins to drink the beverage . I kissed her forehead and sat on the edge of my bed , rocking her until she fell fast asleep .

After an hour or so , the house was silenced . I heard the front door slam so I'm inferring that my mother walked out , again . I was mistaken when I heard a conversation being held outside my door . There were two deep voices . One of the voices I recognised very well ; it was my father but the other one . I couldnt quite put my finger on it . 

I then heard a soft knock come onto my door . "Come in." I said quietly .

My dad peeps into my room and smiled at the sight of sleeping Jessie . He tip toe his way in while his back was curved ackwardly . He was acting like the Grinch . I silently laughed at his goofy behavior as he carefully cradled Jessie into his arms . 

"Go on and go to sleep . You know your auntie wedding is tomorrow -- well today." He gives me a sympathetic glare .

"It's okay dad . Good morning." I said as I crawled into the head of my bed and climbed underneath my covers .

"Good morning baby." He chuckles . I heard when he left my room and closed the door behind him .

I fluffed out my pillow and tried my hardest to go to sleep .

"Is Lani sleep?" A deep voice asks . My eyes shot open at that voice . I then heard a mumble as my father begins to speak .  I hated that I wasn't able to lock my door .

My mother and my father was going through a big argument one night . Some how they shifted their way in front of my door and my mother pushes my father which led him to bump into my door handle . That day scared me . Since then i wasnt able to lock it . My dad hasnt been able to find a lock for my door but im hoping he'll find one soon .

Just when I felt my slumber taking over , I hear my door creeping open . I soon felt the tears coming . 

"Hey baby." His harsh tone filled my room .

"Go away." I sniffled .

"Don't be like that." I heard him say . After a couple of minutes , I felt my bed move and his body was now against mines .

"Please leave." I begged .

"I just want to lay with you tonight baby." He whispers into my ear . I cringed from the heat from his breath .

The nightmare thats been roaming around my home is my father's uncle whose been staying with us for the past year . He started taking interest in me when I turned the age of 14 . I guess because puberty wanted to bless me at a reasonable age .

My father doesn't know what's been going on in his home only because he already have too much on his plate as is . I don't want to be the reason why everything just starts to clash in together .  As far as I know , he's my father's only family -- more like a best friend . He have done a lot for us so when the time became tough for him , my father wanted to be the first to extend a helping hand . Since then he's been staying with us ; coming home late at night then finds his way into my bed .

Despite what im going through , that's what family is about right ? You help each other build and you pick each other up when you fall right ? That's what I was trained to believe .  I know what he does isn't right but I can't afford to break up a shattered family . We're already in bad shape . I just want to keep it from getting worse.