My Only Exception

Chapter 16

"Are you nervous?" He asked softly

"Yea, A little" I Admit

"Theres no need to be, we just have to sleep, nothing else" He says

This makes me feel a little better. More relaxed.

"Okay" I say climbing into the bed.

Jake pulled the covers up over him, and I was a bit hesitant to get under them with him, but I did. For a while both of us just sat there, Looking up at the roof in silence.

"Since both of us are clearly not tired, we could just talk" He said with a shrug. This wouldnt make me feel uncomfortable, we talked all the time.

"Okay" I say turning to face him.

About an hour had past and me and jake had talked about all kinds of funny random things. 

There was a silence before jake looked at me, in a way that he didnt before.

"Do you have a boyfriend?" He says looking down. This shocked me a bit, why would he want to know if I had a boyfreind? There was no way that he could feel the same way about me.

"No..I normally only hang out with Katie, Never any boys" I say, and I odly feel comfortable telling him this.

"So, your not aloud to hang out with boys? Your 15, Are you parents over protactive?" He says confused

"No, Its not that im not allowed to, its just none of them ever really want to..." I say looking away.

"Why?" He says leaning in, and I can see the sympathy in his eyes

"I dont know, they think im weird. The girls dont really like me either. I used to have really bad problems...like depression...and I was just sad all the time, and people just didnt want to be around me. They would act like I was crazy and just weird" I say, and I can feel my eyes begining to bubble.

"If someones sad, Wouldnt you want to make them happy? I just dont understand why people have to be so mean and carless" He says lifting my head, to put it on his chest. The whole while, my stomach was fluttering, and my heart was racing.

"So, you've never had a boyfriend?" He asks, sort of confused

"Well, I had a boyfreind in the 6th grade, it wasnt serious of course, we were young children and we broke up after about 2 weeks. Sometimes I think that It just wont happen for me, not until I get out of highschool." I admit.

"Dont say that, I dont know how you dont know, but you are very pretty, very attractive.." He said in almost a whisper.

"Thanks" I say turning to look at him

He looks into my eyes and moves closer so that our lips are almost touching.

"Have you ever been kissed?" He asks bringing one hand to my cheek

"No"

With that he leans in and places his lips on mine, moving his hand through my hair. I repeated the motion and gently moved my hands across his chest. We both broke away, and he looked down at me.

"Your a good kisser" He laughs and wraps me in.

That kiss, only made me want more, I dont know what, just more, of something.

"Have you ever... you know... had sex?" I asked in the most casual tone I could.

He looked down at me then looked back to teh roof.

"No, I go to an all boys school. I have had girlfreinds but its always hard becuase we have to make time to go meet places, and we cant see each other as much as we could if we went to school together."

I know what was going through my mind was very wrong, and just stupid.

"Why do you ask?" He says puzzled

"I dont know, Do you ever just think you will be stuck as a virgin, maby not forever, but for  a while...?"  I ask him. The thought has occured to me so many times before.

"Yea, sometimes" He says softly

"Do you ever just want to get it over with, you know...?" As the words fumble out of my mouth, I want to pull them back in. This was absurd and just crazy.

It didnt take him long for him to catch on to what I was saying. He looked down at me, pulling himslef back to look at my face eye to eye.

"Are you sure?" He said

"Yea, I think... Yes" I say making my mind up. 

He pulled the coves back getting out of bed, and walking out of the room. Returning about 5 minuts later. 

"Okay, are you really sure? I dont want to hurt you... " He says pushing my hair back

"Yes" I say placing my hand on his

**Flashback over**

I raked my hand my hands thorugh my hair letting the water cover my face before reaching out and turning the water off. 

 I was stupid. So fucking dumb. I was a screwed up, dumb, teenager, Hell, I still am, Just not as dumb as I was in the past. That by far was one of the dumbest things I have ever done. 

A/N: This was just like a filler chapter because I have been busy and school is about to start again soon for me :( I actually update more during school because I have time when I get home, Im busy during the summer. anywho... please comment and vote.